{"id":9738,"date":"2019-08-15T07:52:51","date_gmt":"2019-08-15T04:52:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=9738"},"modified":"2019-08-15T07:52:54","modified_gmt":"2019-08-15T04:52:54","slug":"rabia-dibicin-kaleminden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=9738","title":{"rendered":"Rabia D\u0130B\u0130C&#8217;in Kaleminden&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>\n\nBir beyaz\u0131n olamayaca\u011f\u0131 kadar sadeyim;siyah\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 isey\u00fcz\u00fcnde okunuyor senin;dudaklar\u0131nda o sinsi g\u00fcl\u00fcmse,r\u00fczgarda u\u00e7an per\u00e7emlerine inat yar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi, onlar\u0131n ait oldu\u011fu alan ise; yere d\u00fc\u015fmeye haz\u0131rlanmak i\u00e7in kaplanan aln\u0131n; ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u011fumlu damarlar\u0131n, her an ben de b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131na ise tescil veren bir harabe izi gibi.Tutamayaca\u011f\u0131na ispat veren kinin,her an dudaklar\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fclmek \u00fczere;afallayan v\u00fccudum ise umutsuzlu\u011fun verdi\u011fi keskin k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ile beni par\u00e7alamaya yetiyor,g\u00f6vdem sanki kendini ta\u015f\u0131mak i\u00e7in y\u0131pran\u0131yor, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m ise bir sicim gibi ak\u0131yor;ufak bir \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k var \u00fczerinde ama i\u00e7inde saklayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n alev alev yanan g\u00f6zlerin ise h\u00e2l\u00e2 bana bak\u0131yor;k\u0131r\u0131lgan benli\u011fimle zafer anm\u0131\u015f\u00e7a\u015f\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcmsememe ra\u011fmen, bu i\u00e7ime akan zehrim de, kendimi belli etmemek i\u00e7in ise istedi\u011fim bir oyun.Sen de hafif g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorsun,anlam\u0131\u015f gibi,pes etmi\u015fcesine tehditvari olan v\u00fccudun hafif e\u011fimliydi, tek bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn ile odak noktam\u0131n seni bulup ,etrafa sa\u00e7\u0131lan cam par\u00e7alar\u0131 gibi darmada\u011f\u0131n olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 biliyorsun, \u00fczerinde tehlike kokusunu alan her insan gibi ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131n geri gidece\u011fine ,her an ayaklar\u0131m ise nedensizce sana boyluyor,buna ra\u011fmen o hafif bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ile beni yerimde kalmakta zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir hale b\u00fcr\u00fcp, tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn ile sars\u0131yorsun;bu korkutucu etkisi ise beni kendine daha \u00e7ok \u00e7ekiyor.Sustum,sustun; o bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda ki anl\u0131k \u00f6fke dindi sanki,sonra h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n olan bir ifadenle ,geri d\u00f6nece\u011fini ad\u0131m gibi bilmeme ra\u011fmen sadece \u00e7ekilmekle yetiniyorsun ama her\u015fey burda bitmiyor,biliyorum,kararl\u0131yd\u0131n ;beni ve ben de olan her \u015feyi istiyorsun;paronayak\u00e7a\u015f\u0131na bir ama\u00e7 u\u011fruna haline getirdi\u011fin halde yine de esrarengiz bir \u015fekilde kendini ,b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya yad\u0131rgarm\u0131\u015f gibi bir gizemle hissettiklerini saklamaya zorluyorsun;bu ise sadece benim seni daha \u00e7ok istememe sebeb oluyor&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Rabia D\u0130B\u0130C<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"683\" height=\"1024\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/IMG_20190416_153252_140-683x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-9215\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/IMG_20190416_153252_140-683x1024.jpg 683w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/IMG_20190416_153252_140-200x300.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/IMG_20190416_153252_140-768x1152.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/IMG_20190416_153252_140.jpg 1080w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 683px) 100vw, 683px\" \/><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bir beyaz\u0131n olamayaca\u011f\u0131 kadar sadeyim;siyah\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 isey\u00fcz\u00fcnde okunuyor senin;dudaklar\u0131nda o sinsi g\u00fcl\u00fcmse,r\u00fczgarda u\u00e7an per\u00e7emlerine inat yar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f gibi, onlar\u0131n ait oldu\u011fu alan ise; 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