{"id":8924,"date":"2019-01-06T13:01:59","date_gmt":"2019-01-06T10:01:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=8924"},"modified":"2019-01-06T13:01:59","modified_gmt":"2019-01-06T10:01:59","slug":"cocuk-degilim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=8924","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7ocuk De\u011filim…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Belki bir g\u00fcn ben de b\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcm demi\u015ftim.
\nBen yani,\u00e7ocuklu\u011fumda.
\nYa\u015f\u00e7a \u00e7ocukken…
\n\u00c7ocuklarla ya\u015f\u0131tken…
\n\u00d6l\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir beden gibi de\u011fil.
\nDenizler \u00fc\u015f\u00fct\u00fcr beni.
\nAnnem k\u0131zar sonra.
\nD\u00fc\u015fmek istemezdim kay\u0131p \u015fehir Atlantis’e.
\nPoseidonla tan\u0131\u015fmak istemezdim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc.
\nM\u0131zra\u011f\u0131ndan korkard\u0131m.
\nKorkarken ben korkular\u0131mdan.
\nD\u00fc\u015flerim daha helyum dolu bir balonla yere \u00e7ak\u0131lmaktan kurtulurken…
\n\u00c7ocuk\u00e7a d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken…
\nO zamanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da,
\nD\u00fc\u015flerimden birinde ya\u015famak isterdim.
\nBir g\u00f6kdelende ya\u015famak…
\nViskimi yudumlamak..
\nMarlo gibi t\u00fctt\u00fcrmek sigaram\u0131…
\n\u0130saac Newton gibi kafama d\u00fc\u015fecek bir elmam\u0131n olmas\u0131n\u0131…
\nOlmas\u0131n\u0131…
\nAhmed arif gibi kaba,ho\u015f bir diyarbekir a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n olmas\u0131n\u0131…
\nDaha 13-14 ya\u015flar\u0131mda…
\nBunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek isterdim evet.
\nNe eksik,ne fazla…
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fimdi b\u00fcy\u00fcrken insanlar\u0131 tan\u0131yorum.
\nGer\u00e7ek y\u00fczlerini…Ahh!
\nAnlatmasam olur mu bunu?
\nCans\u0131z bedeni k\u0131y\u0131ya vuran k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk gibi kapat\u0131l\u0131yor davam.
\nDenizler \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u00fcyor beni,denizlerle yan\u0131yor ate\u015fim.
\nBana k\u0131zacak bir annem bile yok \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fimdi.
\nPoseidonla tan\u0131\u015fsayd\u0131m belki anlat\u0131rd\u0131 bana denizlerin neden mavi oldu\u011funu.
\nNeden art\u0131k Ankara’da bulunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131…
\nSay\u0131n Poseidon’un m\u0131zra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unutmad\u0131m elbette.
\nBir akt\u00f6r gibi yalanlar i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayan diktat\u00f6r\u00fc asm\u0131yorsa,
\nO pis ci\u011ferini s\u00f6km\u00fcyorsa ne edeyim ben o m\u0131zra\u011f\u0131?
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor olabilirim canice fikirleri.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fimdi
\n\u015eimdi \u00e7ocuk de\u011filim.
\nKorkular\u0131mdan korkard\u0131m \u00e7ocukken,
\nKorktuklar\u0131mdan daha korkun\u00e7 oldu\u011fumu bilseydim ke\u015fke.
\nD\u00fc\u015flerimden birinde olmak isterdim ya,
\n\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015flerimin yine bende olmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum.
\n\u0130nsanlar\u0131n yapay g\u00f6kdelenlerini istemem ben!
\nKendi \u015fiirlerimle g\u00f6kleri yeri gelir deler,yeri gelir inletirim!
\nMarlo’ya benzemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken g\u00f6zlerimden oldum.
\nDuman g\u00f6zlerimi,duman y\u00fcz\u00fcnden kaybettim.
\nBir elma de\u011fildi belki kafama d\u00fc\u015fen,
\nAma o kadar dert vard\u0131 ki \u00fcst\u00fcmde,kafama d\u00fc\u015fen g\u00fcvercin pisli\u011finin bile can\u0131m\u0131 ac\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kesindi.
\nAhmed Arif’in a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n bantland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanmam,\u00e7ocuklu\u011fu \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131rken.
\n\u015eimdi…
\nB\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm,b\u00fcy\u00fcmez olayd\u0131m.
\n\u0130nsan oldum,k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclmez olayd\u0131m.
\nSensiz oldum,\u00f6lmez olayd\u0131m!<\/p>\n

Emin Yurtg\u00fcl<\/p>\n


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