{"id":8749,"date":"2018-12-29T12:26:17","date_gmt":"2018-12-29T09:26:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=8749"},"modified":"2018-12-29T12:26:17","modified_gmt":"2018-12-29T09:26:17","slug":"uzun-hikaye-kisa-omur","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=8749","title":{"rendered":"UZUN H\u0130KAYE, KISA \u00d6M\u00dcR&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/hokka.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/hokka-300x297.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"297\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-7338\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/hokka-300x297.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/hokka-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/hokka.jpg 403w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Uzun bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kmaya karar verdim<br \/>\nElimde eski bir \u00e7anta<br \/>\nBa\u015flad\u0131m koymaya, benden kalan ne varsa<br \/>\nHer kat\u0131na, kokusunu i\u00e7ime \u00e7eke \u00e7eke, a\u015fkla<br \/>\n\u00d6nce, akl\u0131mdan ba\u015flad\u0131m<br \/>\n\u00d6yle b\u00f6yle de\u011fil, o kadar kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k<br \/>\nO kadar \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fczd\u00fc ki<br \/>\nGirdi\u011fim, \u00e7\u00f6zemedi\u011fim cebir s\u0131navlar\u0131 gibi<br \/>\nKalbim, akl\u0131mla \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n diye<br \/>\nSessizce s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm<br \/>\ndamarlar\u0131mdan y\u00fcre\u011fime<br \/>\nHep ayk\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131, hep u\u00e7ar\u0131<br \/>\n\u201cAdam olmaz\u201d derdi akl\u0131m<br \/>\nKalacaks\u0131n hep \u00e7ocuk gibi<br \/>\nGirdim kalbimin tek tek odalar\u0131na<br \/>\nHakl\u0131yd\u0131 akl\u0131m<br \/>\nOdan\u0131n her k\u00f6\u015fesinde bir oyuncak<br \/>\nDa\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131 ama bir o kadar s\u0131cak<br \/>\nAnnemin dikti\u011fi bezden bir bebek<br \/>\nBana bak\u0131yordu biraz ac\u0131, biraz g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek, biraz uykusuz &#8230;<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6p\u00fcp koklanmam\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nUyusun diye sallanmam\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nO minik ellerle sar\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nBirden, her sabah \u00f6r\u00fclen sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma bir kelebek edas\u0131yla kondurulan tokalar\u0131ma ili\u015fti<br \/>\ng\u00f6zlerim<br \/>\n\u015eimdi \u00f6ks\u00fcz, annemsizdi<br \/>\nRenksiz,sevgisiz<br \/>\nO y\u00fczden hep savrulur sa\u00e7lar\u0131m<br \/>\nK\u0131r\u0131lmaya haz\u0131r kolum, kanad\u0131m<br \/>\nTutunamam\u0131\u015f hayalim gibi<br \/>\nR\u00fczgara e\u015f, ya\u011fmura karde\u015f gibi<br \/>\nSonra d\u00f6nd\u00fcm odam\u0131n bir di\u011ferine<br \/>\nG\u00f6zlerim dikmi\u015f g\u00f6zlerini ge\u00e7mi\u015fime<br \/>\nBeni beklemekte<br \/>\nHep dalg\u0131n dalg\u0131n bakard\u0131 zaten<br \/>\nOlur olmaz a\u011flar, hi\u00e7 konu\u015fmazd\u0131<br \/>\n\u00d6yle derindi ki, kim bilir ka\u00e7 r\u00fcyam<br \/>\nbo\u011fuldu i\u00e7inde..ka\u00e7 sevdam<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 rengim,Ka\u00e7 umudum..<br \/>\nA\u00e7t\u0131m raf raf dolaplar\u0131m\u0131<br \/>\nUzaktan k\u0131s\u0131k, babam\u0131n sesi<br \/>\nMente\u015fenin g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131ndaki ahenk gibi<br \/>\nAl k\u0131z\u0131m, bunlar senin der gibi<br \/>\nBilirim, kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r y\u00fcre\u011finin zengili\u011fine tezat cebindikileri<br \/>\nAld\u0131m bayramdan kalma parlak k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131<br \/>\nVe unutmad\u0131m bir kez giydi\u011fim, giymeye k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7i\u00e7ekli elbisemi<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 har\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 feda etmi\u015ftim oysa<br \/>\n\u00d6nce dudaklar\u0131m titredi, sonra ellerim, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc dokunamad\u0131m&#8230;<br \/>\nHepsini tek tek ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi koydum yerine<br \/>\nAn\u0131lar\u0131mla kals\u0131n istedim,<br \/>\nYa\u015fas\u0131n bitmesin akl\u0131mda, y\u00fcre\u011fimde<br \/>\nAnnem gibi,Babam gibi<br \/>\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fum gibi.,,<br \/>\nYine akl\u0131m, ayk\u0131r\u0131 olsa da y\u00fcre\u011fimle<br \/>\nBilirim vazge\u00e7emez, k\u0131yamaz hislerimle<br \/>\nDedim, kal \u00f6ylece,<br \/>\nYeter ki benden gitme<br \/>\nVe ben, elimde eski bir \u00e7anta<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7i bombo\u015f, oysa y\u00fcre\u011fi t\u0131ka basa dolu<br \/>\nBen \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n, ama ben mutlu<br \/>\n\u0130lk kez akl\u0131m y\u00fcre\u011fimle yekpare<br \/>\n\u00dczerimde beyaz bir elbise<br \/>\nEteklerimden tutunmu\u015f ruhumla el ele<br \/>\nGidiyorum \u00c7oook uzaklara<br \/>\nArkamdan u\u011furluyorlar sonra, beni<br \/>\nGemiye de\u011fil, y\u00fcre\u011fime el sallar gibi<\/p>\n<p>Funda EMRE<\/p>\n<p><!-- Admatic inpage x Ad Code START --><br \/>\n<ins data-publisher=\"adm-pub-112522161581\" data-ad-type=\"inpage\" class=\"adm-ads-area\" data-ad-network=\"189782541830\" 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