{"id":7653,"date":"2018-01-14T21:19:30","date_gmt":"2018-01-14T18:19:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=7653"},"modified":"2018-01-14T21:19:30","modified_gmt":"2018-01-14T18:19:30","slug":"sevdigin-herkese-yol-goster","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=7653","title":{"rendered":"Sevdi\u011fin Herkese Yol G\u00f6ster…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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” Sevdi\u011fin herkese yol g\u00f6ster “, demi\u015f Allah.. Ben senin \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131n olmu\u015fum, \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn kap\u0131lar kilit \u00e7ekmi\u015f bana..
\nSand\u0131kta gizli olan kefen h\u00e2l\u00e2 dolanmad\u0131 boynuma ; bekliyorum bir ihtimal, son bir ihtimal daha var..
\n1980’lerin haziran\u0131, g\u00fcnlerden \u00e7ar\u015famba ; ben, o zamanlar daha on d\u00f6rd\u00fc on be\u015findeyim hayat\u0131n, senin anlayaca\u011f\u0131n yanmam\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fin afacan\u0131y\u0131m..
\nO aralar aileye destek olmak i\u00e7in simit sat\u0131yorum sokak sokak, ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra ; en tazesinden en gevre\u011fine..
\nO g\u00fcn, dar soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesinden d\u00f6nd\u00fcm i\u00e7eriye, buram buram \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle kokuyor ortal\u0131k ; han\u0131meli kokan bah\u00e7enin orda, ad\u0131mlar\u0131m yava\u015flay\u0131veriyor istemsizce..
\nHani en sevdi\u011fin kokuyu al\u0131nca biraz daha \u00e7ekmek istersin ya i\u00e7ine, biraz daha kalay\u0131m dersin derinden gelen bir sevgiyle ; ayn\u0131 \u00f6yle, soka\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda beliriverdi bir anda Hatice, yava\u015flad\u0131m bende..
\nBenim babam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ok\u015fam\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yok hi\u00e7, yani var, bi iki kere var, ba\u015fkada bilmem beni sevdi\u011fini ; yani k\u0131sa bi mutluluktu Hatice’nin benim yan\u0131mdan ge\u00e7i\u015fi..
\nO, geldi ge\u00e7ti gitti, ben dondum kald\u0131m, zaman durdu bi an..
\nAnnem hep ” sevda, insan\u0131n cennetidir” derdi, kendi kendime o\u011flum, dedim, ‘\u00f6\u011flenin bu cehennem s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda, cennetin i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn.. ‘
\nS\u00f6yledim ya, Hatice gelip ge\u00e7ti ben orda kald\u0131m diye ; hi\u00e7 fark\u0131nda de\u011filim, yukar\u0131dan ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131l\u0131nca bana simit\u00e7i diye, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcverdim bir anda, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ac\u0131 ger\u00e7e\u011fine..
\nSenin anlayaca\u011f\u0131n, 27 y\u0131ld\u0131r ayn\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesindeyim h\u00e2l\u00e2 ad\u0131mlar\u0131m yava\u015flar han\u0131meli kokan sokaktan ge\u00e7ince..
\nE\u011fer do\u011farsa kafeste bir ku\u015f, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr kendince, akl\u0131nca, hacmiyle ; hastal\u0131k zanneder sonra u\u00e7may\u0131, delice..
\nCesaret etti\u011fim an mutlu olmay\u0131 kendimce ; kaderime ba\u011fl\u0131 bu hayat, \u00e7ekiverir an\u0131nda ipini \u00fcm\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme..
\nBen bi filmin b\u00fcy\u00fcs\u00fcne kap\u0131l\u0131p heba ettim 27 y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131 ; 27 y\u0131ld\u0131r ayn\u0131 filmi izliyorum, ba\u015frol h\u00e2l\u00e2 bende..
\nB\u00f6yle uzaktan uza\u011fa sevmek, b\u00f6yle i\u00e7in yansa da hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyememek varya hani ; g\u00f6z\u00fcmde b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcyorum onca \u015feyi, hele ki ufac\u0131k bi kay\u0131p ya\u015fay\u0131nca tuzla buz ediyorum beynimde her\u015feyi..
\nDo\u011fmam\u0131\u015f yar\u0131nlara, fakat sadece karanl\u0131k bir geceden ibarettir d\u00fcnya ; sabahlar ahirette olacak zann\u0131mca.. ”
\n Tam o esnada, plaktan y\u00fckseldi bir ses ‘ Elbet bir g\u00fcn bulu\u015faca\u011f\u0131z..’ ve bir an da sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc masaya ; Rasim abi de ise, iki damla ya\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcverdi, g\u00f6zlerinden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya..<\/p>\n

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” Sevdi\u011fin herkese yol g\u00f6ster “, demi\u015f Allah.. Ben senin \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131n olmu\u015fum, \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn kap\u0131lar kilit \u00e7ekmi\u015f bana.. Sand\u0131kta gizli olan kefen h\u00e2l\u00e2 dolanmad\u0131 boynuma ; bekliyorum bir ihtimal, son bir ihtimal daha var.. 1980’lerin haziran\u0131, g\u00fcnlerden \u00e7ar\u015famba ; ben, … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[2422],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7653"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7653"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7653\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7655,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7653\/revisions\/7655"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7653"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7653"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7653"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}