{"id":7464,"date":"2017-12-25T10:18:08","date_gmt":"2017-12-25T07:18:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=7464"},"modified":"2017-12-25T10:18:08","modified_gmt":"2017-12-25T07:18:08","slug":"gittim-ben-senden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=7464","title":{"rendered":"Gittim Ben Senden&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-300x132.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"132\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-7326\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-300x132.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-768x338.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-1024x450.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek.jpg 1182w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Vedala\u015fmak \u00fcmidiyle \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m karanl\u0131k d\u00fcnyamdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131..<br \/>\nUnutmak i\u00e7in y\u00f6neldi\u011fim her ne varsa, akl\u0131ma getirdi yine beni, benden, bedenimden..<br \/>\nGidi\u015finin \u015ferefine i\u00e7iyorum son kadehimi ; bu seferki senden..<br \/>\nHalbuki nede g\u00fczel ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar vard\u0131, tek ba\u015f\u0131na kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e2lemde ; biz aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en..<br \/>\nSen hep deniz kenar\u0131n\u0131 hayal eder, yan\u0131na bi kahve, bi de kitap isterken ; ben ise okudu\u011fun roman\u0131n ba\u015frol oyuncusu olmak isterdim seninle, bizken..<br \/>\nKusurlu hayat\u0131m\u0131n tek do\u011frusu, ger\u00e7e\u011fi ve kusursuz yan\u0131yd\u0131n ; anlasana geli\u015finle b\u00fct\u00fcn yanl\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 do\u011fru yapt\u0131n sen..<br \/>\nHayrola bu gidi\u015fin neden.?<br \/>\nGidiyorsun ya \u015fimdi sen benden ; zannediyorsun ki ben, beni b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyada kal\u0131cam.. Asla!, kalm\u0131cam..<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0131karamayacaks\u0131n beni akl\u0131ndan, ben hep seninle olucam ; misal g\u00f6lgen gibi..<br \/>\nNereye gitsen, nerde olsan, hangi sokakta kime selam versen, nerde ne zaman kiminle konu\u015fsan ; ben hep seninle olucam..<br \/>\nMesela sen mutfakta yemek yaparken, ben o buzdolab\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda olucam..<br \/>\nKanepede battaniyene sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f film izlerken sen, ben o kanepenin ucunda olucam..<br \/>\nSokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n biriyle konu\u015furken ; ben seni k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda bekliyor olucam..<br \/>\nH\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla yeti\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken bi yerlere sen, ben sana bir ad\u0131m daha yak\u0131n olucam..<br \/>\nSohbetin en koyu an\u0131nda kahkaha atarken sen, ben ufak bi tebess\u00fcmle seni izliyor olucam..<br \/>\nSen do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde mutlu mesut olurken, ben kaybetti\u011fim y\u0131llar\u0131ma a\u011fl\u0131yor olucam..<br \/>\nAnlad\u0131m ki, sadece bana zehir de\u011filmi\u015f a\u015fk ; hepimize, sana, ona, onlara..<br \/>\nK\u00f6r oldum ben ; hayata ve en sonunda sana..<br \/>\nYalan s\u00f6ylemekten yoruldum art\u0131k kendime ; \u00e7\u0131kar beni beyninden, sakl\u0131 tuttu\u011fun h\u00fccreden; sal beni, bitsin art\u0131k dayan\u0131lmaz sanc\u0131lar\u0131n, a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n..<br \/>\nBirden kopacak herkes senden, yapayaln\u0131z kalacaks\u0131n. Anlayacaks\u0131n sende neyin ne oldu\u011funu..<br \/>\nBiraz sevmek diye bir \u015fey yokmu\u015f diyeceksin kendi kendine ; ya \u00f6leceksin a\u015fk\u0131ndan ya da vazge\u00e7eceksin kendinden..<\/p>\n<p>Furkan KOCABA\u015e<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Vedala\u015fmak \u00fcmidiyle \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m karanl\u0131k d\u00fcnyamdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131.. Unutmak i\u00e7in y\u00f6neldi\u011fim her ne varsa, akl\u0131ma getirdi yine beni, benden, bedenimden.. Gidi\u015finin \u015ferefine i\u00e7iyorum son kadehimi ; bu seferki senden.. Halbuki nede g\u00fczel ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar vard\u0131, tek ba\u015f\u0131na kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e2lemde ; biz aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en.. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=7464\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[48,27,2422,2562],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7464"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7464"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7464\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7465,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7464\/revisions\/7465"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7464"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7464"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7464"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}