\u2018\u2019Tek utanc\u0131m, bekle demekti giderken. Ve tek sevincim bekleyece\u011fini bilmekti, \u0131srarla, vazge\u00e7meden\u2019\u2019 dedi gen\u00e7 adam.<\/p>\n
Begonfillerle s\u00fcslenmi\u015f, iki kat\u0131 da \u015fehre isyan bayra\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f evinden, ok\u015fayarak \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131na inat timsali kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f sakallar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Eviyle birdi ahvali her daim. O kocaman apartmanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda, bacas\u0131 t\u00fcten, d\u00f6k\u00fclse de dik durmaktan geri durmayan bir yuva, bu gen\u00e7 adamsa nice tabular\u0131n aras\u0131nda yekpare \u00f6zg\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc korumay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f, cevval bir delikanl\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 is kokan \u015fehrinin sokaklar\u0131nda, bakt\u0131 her g\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcp de, bir g\u00fcn de\u011fer bi\u00e7medi\u011fimiz binlerce sanat \u015fahikas\u0131na. Y\u0131llanm\u0131\u015f, par\u00e7a par\u00e7a d\u00f6k\u00fclen o otomobillere, \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fc\u011fe d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ocuk parklar\u0131na\u2026 Yaln\u0131zca bakt\u0131, kendinden de pay bi\u00e7ti, kendine de pay bi\u00e7ti. Ve anlad\u0131 kar\u0131\u015fan\u0131n sadece sakallar\u0131 ile sa\u00e7lar\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Kar\u0131\u015fan ak ile kara idi.<\/p>\n
Anl\u0131yordu yava\u015ftan vaktinin doldu\u011funu, hani \u00e7ok da g\u00f6z\u00fc yoktu zaten ya\u015famak denende. G\u00f6rece\u011fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, \u00e7uval\u0131n\u0131 doldurmu\u015ftu. Hayret edilesi bir \u015fey, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kabullenmi\u015f bir delikanl\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu, dura\u011f\u0131 yokmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na\u2026<\/p>\n
K\u00f6\u015fede y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 babas\u0131n\u0131n vakit eyledi\u011fi kahveyi g\u00f6rd\u00fc, sahibi \u015eahin abi, eski kula\u011f\u0131 kesiklerdendi\u2026 Ama \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc adad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o\u011flunu topra\u011fa vermi\u015f, elini ete\u011fini \u00e7ekmi\u015fti her \u015feyden. O\u011flundan emanet bir resim, bir de emektar Gazi Kahvehanesi kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 elinde. Ne han\u0131m\u0131 beklemi\u015fti ruhunun kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ne de evlad\u0131 Caner\u2026 Caner \u00e7ocukluk arkada\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 bizim delikanl\u0131n\u0131n, mahallede zillere bas\u0131p ka\u00e7arken b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar, bizimkiler nerede ticaret nerede kurnazl\u0131k oradayd\u0131lar. Bir g\u00fcn olsun dokunmad\u0131lar kimsenin mal\u0131na, helali var Salih daha cana yak\u0131n, daha sakindi Caner\u2019den\u2026 Kim bilebilirdi ki, hayat h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131 bir kerede \u00e7\u0131karaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Gidece\u011fine seviniyordu, nedeni ard\u0131ndan k\u00f6\u015fe bucak da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 Reyhan\u2019\u0131yd\u0131\u2026 Uzun laf\u0131n k\u0131sas\u0131, her veda bir kavu\u015fmaya denk geliyordu onda, her kavu\u015fma ise yeni bir vedan\u0131n ad\u0131yd\u0131 k\u0131saca\u2026<\/p>\n
Ete\u011fi dizlerine de\u011fen paltosunun yakalar\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e ok\u015fad\u0131 ve yukar\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131 Salih, Babas\u0131ndan yadig\u00e2r k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kehribar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 cebinden, sevmezdi mutluyken tesbih sallamay\u0131, ona g\u00f6re \u00e7ektik\u00e7e ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 aktar\u0131rd\u0131n kehribar\u0131n ta\u015flar\u0131na. Dikle\u015ftirdi s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 biraz daha, sanki bir daha durmayacakm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye devam etti. Ta ki kap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7eride ac\u0131 bar\u0131nd\u0131ran, o g\u00fcd\u00fck duvarl\u0131 mezarl\u0131\u011fa gelene kadar. G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi\u011fini bilmez kolay kolay kimse Salih\u2019in. Yaln\u0131zca sevdiklerine geldi\u011finde a\u00e7ar y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00fcller. Bu da o anlardan biri ya zaten, gelmi\u015fti yine Reyhan\u2019\u0131n saray\u0131na\u2026 \u00d6yle bir seviyordu ki topra\u011f\u0131, sanki i\u00e7inden bir \u015feyler ak\u0131t\u0131yor ona\u2026 S\u00f6ylemek istedikleri varm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na susuyor, bir o kadar da hayk\u0131r\u0131yordu i\u00e7indekileri\u2026<\/p>\n
Bug\u00fcn\u2026 Kas\u0131m ay\u0131n\u0131n 3\u2019\u00fc\u2026 <\/p>\n
Salih kavu\u015ftu sevdiklerinin kollar\u0131na\u2026 Cenazesi de ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131 gibiydi, ondan geriye birka\u00e7 k\u0131yafet, az bir miktar para ve evi kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Evi zaten babas\u0131ndand\u0131, Olanca paras\u0131n\u0131 da ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 gitmeden evvel. \u015eahin abi herkesin aksine duygusuzdu. S\u00f6ylemek istedikleri vard\u0131, ama susuyordu. Sonra dostlar\u0131na yana\u015ft\u0131, tombul yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015f beyaz sakallar\u0131 ve kollar\u0131n\u0131 iyice s\u0131km\u0131\u015f deri yele\u011fiyle bir duru\u015f att\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2019Salih!\u2019\u2019 dedi\u2026 \u2018\u2019Salih, benim o\u011flum gibiydi. \u015eimdi onu da Caner\u2019imin yan\u0131na yollad\u0131m\u2026 Gayr\u0131 ne yapar\u0131m tek ba\u015f\u0131ma\u2026\u2019\u2019 dedi. Doktoru, Kom\u015fular\u0131 hepsi ordayd\u0131 lakin hi\u00e7 biri Salih\u2019i iyice tan\u0131mazd\u0131\u2026 Salih ard\u0131nda dizeler b\u0131rakmak istemi\u015fti, Salih ard\u0131nda de an\u0131, ne mutluluk b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026 Ard\u0131ndan, yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda bulmu\u015flar bunu yani, s\u00f6ylemek isteyip de, s\u00f6yleyemediklerini\u2026 <\/p>\n
\u2018\u2019Umudum Fadila, umudum..<\/p>\n
Kalm\u0131\u015f \u0131slak yast\u0131klarda\u2026<\/p>\n
Kalm\u0131\u015f da, y\u0131kamam\u0131\u015f etten duvarlar\u0131!<\/p>\n
G\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f fakat susmu\u015f,<\/p>\n
Ona senden dem vuranlar\u0131!<\/p>\n
Umudum Fadila, umudum..<\/p>\n
Boynundan ya\u011fl\u0131 urgan,<\/p>\n
Son s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sormadan<\/p>\n
G\u00f6ndermi\u015fler yan\u0131na<\/p>\n
Umudumu asm\u0131\u015flar Fadila!<\/p>\n
Gayr\u0131 bekleme beni\u2026\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n
(3 Kas\u0131m 2017)<\/p>\n
Oktay Emre EFL\u0130Z<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2018\u2019Tek utanc\u0131m, bekle demekti giderken. Ve tek sevincim bekleyece\u011fini bilmekti, \u0131srarla, vazge\u00e7meden\u2019\u2019 dedi gen\u00e7 adam. Begonfillerle s\u00fcslenmi\u015f, iki kat\u0131 da \u015fehre isyan bayra\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f evinden, ok\u015fayarak \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131na inat timsali kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f sakallar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Eviyle birdi ahvali her daim. O kocaman apartmanlar\u0131n … Okumaya devam et