26 Temmuz-3 Eyl\u00fcl <\/p>\n
I.
\n\u00d6fkeyle ko\u015ftu\u011fum her \u015fiir sonu
\nBir sabaha \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor mutlaka
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 do\u011fmaya mecburmu\u015f t\u00fcm sabahlar, \u00f6\u011frendim bak!
\nSen uyursun her g\u00fcn do\u011fumunda durmadan
\nBen uyand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in tutar\u0131m farbelalar\u0131ndan seni
\nM\u0131r\u0131l m\u0131r\u0131l
\nSarmanla\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n iyice
\nUtand\u0131\u011f\u0131m notalar yakalar
\nYakalar ellerimi
\nBak, g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor musun?
\nA\u00e7 g\u00f6zlerini sevgili,
\nBug\u00fcnler art\u0131k k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131.
\nUsul usul
\nTerk ederim o \u00e7ocuk parklar\u0131n\u0131,
\nSabahlar\u0131.
\n\u015e\u00f6len meydanlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r kalbimde
\nHemde en kuzeyinde, gitmemi istersin
\nBense kalmak isterim durmadan o deli g\u00fcnlerde
\nSat\u0131yorum, bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131mla yanan g\u00fcnleri, bug\u00fcnlerimize
\nS\u00f6z bak
\nBir mutlu olacaks\u0131n, bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun elleri kadar hemde.
\nS\u00f6z !
\nBir sabah uyanacaks\u0131n,
\nHer ihtimali ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131z, o gelecek tren seslerinde
\n\u015eimdi i\u015fte benim bu dedi\u011fim, ne demekse
\nOnu diyorum bak
\nPencereden bak\u0131yorum o vakit kalk\u0131p
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 sevgilim,
\nHer yer k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 !
\nRaylara at\u0131yor kendini geride kalan zaman
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyorum bu \u015fiirin ba\u015f\u0131na
\nOnu da f\u0131rlat\u0131yorum \u015fu camdan
\nBir deli kesiyor onu tam da ortas\u0131ndan
\nBilirsin,
\nNeydi bu deli\u2019lik ge\u00e7mi\u015f zaman kiplerinde ?
\nKesilen yerlerinden bu \u015fiir, e\u011filiyor dizlerine
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131dan geride kalan bak
\nBirka\u00e7 el mektup olsun istiyorum bazen
\nYazmalar\u0131 gibi annemin.
\nBiliyorum, art\u0131k kimse avunmaz bu sabah\u0131n eteklerinde
\nAma f\u0131rf\u0131rl\u0131 olsun ister annem
\nD\u00f6ns\u00fcn dursun o zaman bu \u015fiirlerde.<\/p>\n
II.
\nA\u015fk diyorlar her \u015fiir sonuna
\nKim, bir o\u011flan \u00e7ocu\u011funun elinde \u00f6lmeye haz\u0131r bir g\u00fcl g\u00f6rse
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ysa \u00fcstelik
\nBirde sakl\u0131yorsa elleriyle dikenleri
\nA\u015fk oydu i\u015fte, \u00c7ingene sepetlerinde
\nBirka\u00e7 b\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fck dudak b\u0131rakt\u0131 \u015fimdi
\nSepetlerinden bo\u015falm\u0131\u015f \u00c7ingene sesleri,
\nBize k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131r, iyi dinle.
\nKuyruk sallar, birka\u00e7ta unutulmu\u015f c\u00fcmle
\n\u2018Ben bir kad\u0131n sevdim ki evim art\u0131k g\u00fcl kokar.\u2019<\/p>\n
Bir zamana kurban gidecek her sabah\u0131m\u0131z
\nBa\u015fka ye\u015filler rest \u00e7ekecek bu gidi\u015fe
\nG\u00f6receksin ki savrulmu\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131m
\nYak\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m beyazlarda, en k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yelelerimle
\nAh, sen tan\u0131mazs\u0131n \u015fimdi
\nF\u00fcsunla tan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m o sabah i\u015fte
\nAnnem duymas\u0131n
\nBende ok\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131m onun terliklerinde kalan ayak izlerini.
\nKo\u015faca\u011f\u0131m F\u00fcsun\u2019a
\nKollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mayacak bu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131klara b\u00fcy\u00fck ihtimalle.<\/p>\n
\u00d6fke yakalar ellerimi k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 hat\u0131r\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k\u00e7a
\nHat\u0131rlamal\u0131y\u0131m o zaman i\u015fte !
\nTedav\u00fclden kalkm\u0131\u015f bir damla kand\u0131 a\u015fk art\u0131k.<\/p>\n
\/\/ Beni affedecek misin F\u00fcsun ?
\nGelece\u011fim yan\u0131na, s\u00f6z
\nU\u00e7arak hemde
\nBizim zaman\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6yle de\u011fil pek
\nU\u00e7urumlar s\u00f6z konusu de\u011filken bile
\nU\u00e7mak isteriz, en ince g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde \/\/<\/p>\n
Bu sat\u0131rlarda s\u0131r olsun k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131
\nKim onu bulursa, kalbimi verece\u011fim ona
\nSen bulma F\u00fcsun, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 art\u0131k \u2018sevgili\u2019de, kalbimse
\nKalbimse kuzeyde!
\n\u00c7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmekten gelemeyece\u011fim yan\u0131na art\u0131k.
\n\u015eimdiyse burada
\nBir k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z mum yakacak,bir Pazar ayininde
\nYaramazd\u0131r kom\u015fu \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 bilmezsin sen F\u00fcsun
\n\u0130\u015fte geliyorlar
\nDevirecekler mumu elleriyle!
\n——
\nAh, yanacaks\u0131n ve anlamayacaks\u0131n
\nBense diyorum, s\u00f6nece\u011fim, u\u011fursuzluk getirece\u011fim bu ayine
\nBa\u015f\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131yacak, sonunu isteyeceksin s\u00fcrekli sen
\nBir nokta at\u0131\u015f\u0131 belki de
\nBense, menzili \u015fa\u015f\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m hep
\nHi\u00e7 varamayaca\u011f\u0131m bu \u015fiirin son dizesine.<\/p>\n
III.
\nUyuma art\u0131k sevgilim
\nDo\u011fuyor k\u0131z\u0131l bir sabah, tenine
\nHadi kalk \u015furdan
\nSenin gecenden kalma bir ay kayboluyor, tenimde
\nMeydanlara \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m o sabah,
\nO meydanlar
\nYok o meydanlar
\nNereye saklad\u0131n onlar\u0131 do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yle
\n\u015eu \u015fehrin meydanlar\u0131nda direk gibi eller
\nEllerimiz
\nNerede ?
\nKopya \u00e7ektimse
\nBir senden
\nBirde F\u00fcsun\u2019un k\u0131z\u0131ndan i\u015fte.
\nBu \u015fehrin \u00fcst\u00fcnde
\nVe
\nSaat kulesinin alt\u0131nda, bir yerlerde olmal\u0131.
\nEn deli r\u00fczgarlar bizim i\u00e7in esmeli ve kar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131lar \u015fehrin k\u00f6rfezine !
\nHisset, hadi !
\nDilek \u015fart kiplerimi !
\nS\u00f6z verdin
\nS\u00f6z dedim k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya bende, kaybolaca\u011f\u0131z bu \u015fehrin en bilinmezlerinde
\nS\u00f6z\u00fcn s\u00f6z m\u00fc
\nBilemem
\nBen bir notaya ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m o sabah
\nMeydan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda
\nTik-tak ve
\nO deli r\u00fczgar\u0131n es\u2019iyle !<\/p>\n
Hadi ama sevgilim
\nBak sabah olacak az daha
\nDaha olmadan sabah, \u015fu gecenin koynunda
\nHen\u00fcz geli\u015fmemi\u015fken bu eller
\nBulu\u015fsun \u015fu ba\u015f\u0131bozuk \u015fiirin ortas\u0131nda
\nAn\u0131t gibi dikilsinler bu \u015fehrin meydanlar\u0131na!<\/p>\n
IV.
\nNe bakire olarak geliyorum sana
\nNe de fahi\u015fe
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131m ben, yine en k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 -benim-
\nSolu\u011funda daha \u00e7ok k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131la\u015fmak niyetinde
\nGeliyorum bak
\nF\u00fcsun bizi azletsin
\nDelirmek niyetine geldik bug\u00fcnlere
\nBilirsin,
\nAh, tekrara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum
\n\u0130\u015fte kuca\u011f\u0131ndan.
\nYe\u015fil ajandalardan s\u0131z\u0131yorum gecelere
\nBelki birka\u00e7 n\u00fcshad\u0131r an\u2019lar
\nOnlarla geliyorum,
\n\u00c7ok fazlalar.
\nBir \u00e7ocu\u011fun elleri kadarlar.
\nYumruk yapmalar\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum, \u00f6yle say\u0131yorum onlardaki izlerini
\nMilyonlarca
\nBak, onlarda bizim
\nHepside bizim !<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n uzamaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor tenimde
\nUzas\u0131n
\nAkl\u0131ma iyi \u015feyler gelmiyor
\nEn sonunda sen beni, en diplerine
\nKa\u00e7\u0131racaks\u0131n <\/p>\n
Ben ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bu dizelere
\nFenayd\u0131 ortal\u0131k
\nHay\u0131r
\nYok hay\u0131r
\n\u00d6fkem sat\u0131rlarca zora ko\u015ftu beni
\n\u0130yi tutamad\u0131lar dizginlerimi
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcp durup ben nas\u0131l vard\u0131m bu u\u00e7urumlara demekten vazge\u00e7-meli-
\nMeydanlard\u0131 bizi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran, bir dinginlik gibi
\n\u015eimdiyse
\n\u00d6fkemin s\u2019si kald\u0131 bir tek
\nO da s\u2019den bir sessiz bir seda saklar gibi
\nGibilere yak\u0131\u015fmazs\u0131n sen
\nSana ilk g\u00f6zlerim a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\u2018bu an\u2019\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m do\u011fdu\u011fumda ben!\u2019 dedim
\nYan\u0131lm\u0131\u015fsam e\u011fer, ruhumda kalm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131 izin
\nTenimdeki ben gibi
\nBak G\u00fcney Amerika\u2019y\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131yor sanki
\nBir ya\u015fl\u0131 K\u0131z\u0131lderili, bar\u0131\u015f \u00e7ubu\u011funu yakm\u0131\u015f,
\nOturmu\u015f tam oraya
\nFena t\u00fct\u00fcyor sevgilim baksana
\nGece onun duman\u0131nda kaybolmakta<\/p>\n
\/\/ \u0130\u015fte \u015fimdi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum o g\u00fcnleri
\n\u015e\u00f6lenli sabahlar\u0131m\u0131 anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m,
\nTakasa al\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnlerimi
\nKalbimin \u0131skontosuydu hepsi<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi i\u015fte bunlar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn hepsi,
\n\u00c7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131mla b\u00fcy\u00fcyen bu meydanlar art\u0131k yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u00fczl\u00fckte
\nBuluruz belki sabah\u0131n be\u015fini
\nO zaman ben seni sonsuz \u2013daha- ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olurum,
\nSonsuz defa, sonsuz zamanda
\nSense beni. \/\/<\/p>\n
En\u2019lerini \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f\u0131m
\nG\u00fcn do\u011fumu yetmemi\u015f, yeti\u015fmemi\u015f kalbine
\nBariz ki kapal\u0131 hala g\u00f6zlerin
\n\u0130ste\u011fin k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ysa e\u011fer sevgili
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131..
\nEy k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131!
\nTerk et \u015fimdi buray\u0131!
\n\u0130stemek geliyor bana ans\u0131z\u0131n..
\n\/\/Kad\u0131nd\u0131r
\nBilir dir
\nK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 da
\nSevmelidir\/\/
\nDedi\u011fimde yine \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m imgeler utan\u00e7la uyan\u0131r,
\nA\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r senin sabahlar\u0131na
\nAh, \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm
\nBa\u015f\u0131nda neyse sonunda da ayn\u0131s\u0131 olacak -sevgili-
\nTerli
\nKanl\u0131
\nVe kirli
\nBak bunu \u00f6zellikle F\u00fcsun duymas\u0131n
\nSonra annem.<\/p>\n
V.
\nBi\u2019 sakinlik yakalam\u0131\u015f d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131
\nAnla\u015f\u0131lan o ki
\nBu keman\u0131n susmas\u0131
\nBir \u00f6l\u00fcm getirecek \u015fimdi bu \u015f\u00f6len d\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne<\/p>\n
Ah, bak g\u00fclmelisin sen
\nBa’su b\u00e2de’l-mevt!
\nDo\u011faca\u011f\u0131z, sabahs\u0131z, gecesiz, \u00f6ylesiz bir vakitte
\nEn dipli gece s\u0131rtlar\u0131nda dolan\u0131rken -el ele-
\nVe yaz\u0131lacak yeniden t\u00fcm \u015fiirler
\nO gece t\u00fcm \u015faraplar d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrken
\nDiplere do\u011fru akarken hepsi
\n-\u0130\u015fte o gece \u00fc\u00e7ten sonra
\nEn \u0131ss\u0131z gecenin koylar\u0131nda-
\nDinginli\u011fe erece\u011fiz o vakit i\u015fte!
\nHissedece\u011fiz en dipleri.
\n\/\/D\u00f6nmeli, geri gelmeli
\nO sevdalar \u00e7a\u011f\u0131.\/\/
\nG\u00f6r-meli-sin
\nDilek \u015fart kiplerimi
\nHepside bak art\u0131k senin koy\u2019unda
\nDizi dizi<\/p>\n
VI.
\n\u0130stedi\u011fin g\u00fczelli\u011fi yakalad\u0131n m\u0131 boynundan (?)
\nUzun zamand\u0131r bak ,
\nO tren ge\u00e7miyor bu evin yak\u0131nlar\u0131ndan.
\n\u00c7ekiyorum \u015fiir ge\u00e7irmez perdeleri sonuna kadar
\nAh, uzun, \u00e7ook uzun zaman
\nKo\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yollar olmu\u015f
\nVaramad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z meydanlar.
\nHadi s\u00f6yleyin \u015fimdi bundan ne \u00e7\u0131kar(?)
\nG\u00fcz\u00fc bo\u015f ver,
\nUla\u015f\u0131lmaz asma kabaklar\u0131n\u0131
\nUnut hadi, hadi
\nO evin i\u00e7inde ve k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131dan en uzak yerde.
\nHat\u0131rla o zaman, bak ben taneciktim senin en koy’u -us-unda
\nBekleseydin tarlalarda -bin -ekindik,
\nE\u011fer s\u00fcr\u00fclebilseydik,
\nEller, eller\u2026
\nBir dikil(e)mediler \u015fu zavall\u0131 meydanlar\u0131n orta yerine
\nNe dizinde dururlar
\nNe de Pazartesi yetsin onlara-iste ki-
\nBir Pazar ayininde yand\u0131 hepsi
\n\u0130\u015fte o adadan kalanlar b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn de\u011filmi\u015f
\nKi yar\u0131msa e\u011fer,
\n\u0130yisi (mi?) bu kadar
\n m\u0131\u015f
\n sev
\n gi
\n li <\/p>\n
\/\/Ve Ece, g\u00f6mle\u011fi i\u00e7inde korlar\u0131
\nate\u015fleyen B\u00fcy\u00fcc\u00fc Kad\u0131n bildi\u011fini hi\u00e7bir zaman anlatmak
\nistemeyecek bize.\/\/<\/p>\n
Her a\u015fk\u0131n sonunda bir ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u015fiiri sakl\u0131d\u0131r
\nBense tam ortas\u0131ndan selam \u00e7akt\u0131m bu sat\u0131rlarla
\n\u015eu a\u015fk\u0131n en onulmad\u0131k noktas\u0131na
\nBir sona al\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r gibi bu \u015fiiri
\nVe kurtulur gibi en diplerden
\nHayk\u0131r\u0131r gibi kemanlar
\nKusar gibi piyanolar
\n\u00d6l\u00fcrd\u00fc b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131lar<\/p>\n
Kim ne yaps\u0131n art\u0131k \u00f6l\u00fc k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 (?)<\/p>\n
Sen bana \u015fapkan\u0131 ver
\nYa da bo\u015fver. <\/p>\n
Cad\u0131 Kad\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi sonunda,
\nKalbini de\u011fil
\n\u015eapkan\u0131
\n\u00c7a la ca \u011f\u0131m<\/p>\n
Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda verece\u011fim k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131y\u0131 <\/p>\n
VII.
\n\u015eu kuleden \u015fu kuleye
\nGerilmi\u015f t\u00fcm ipler; u\u00e7lar\u0131nda k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131
\nG\u00f6rd\u00fcm hepsini
\nNas\u0131l da insan\u0131 ayart\u0131r,
\nOyna\u015fan mor salk\u0131mlar\u0131n
\nDizmi\u015fsin dizinin dibine kald\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131
\nTek tek bakt\u0131m
\nAh, \u00e7ocu\u011fun olmu\u015f, yetim hakk\u0131 b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n geride
\nKaybolan valizler gibiyim \u015fimdi ben
\nNe taraf ula\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 senin d\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne
\n\u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm aral\u0131klar oldu kald\u0131r\u0131m kenarlar\u0131nda
\nOturdum oraya
\n\u0130yice ve G\u00fczelce
\nBirkez de \u00f6yle bakt\u0131m adan\u0131n
\nEn derin koy\u2019u -us-una
\nAh, ka\u00e7t\u0131m delice o aral\u0131klara
\nKa\u00e7t\u0131m ka\u00e7t\u0131m
\nKalbimi de tam o araya b\u0131rakt\u0131m<\/p>\n
Pat\u0131r pat\u0131r ko\u015ftumdu yamac\u0131na
\nVe \u015fimdiyse at\u0131yorum kendimi raylara.
\nBen daha gelmeden bu d\u00fczl\u00fcklere
\n\u0130nanamayacaks\u0131n eyy kalbim!
\nBu adan\u0131n en koy’u -us-unda
\nYitip gitmi\u015fsin sen eyy sevgili!
\nNe deli’likti (?) kim ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f ki bunu
\nHi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim kulelerden-di her \u015fiirin sonu
\nTad\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f hen\u00fcz
\nYiten r\u00fczgarlar\u0131n tenindeyim
\nEvet, i\u015fte onlar
\nEn deli r\u00fczgarlar
\nT\u00fcm bunlardan geriye kalan ne birka\u00e7 el mektup
\nAh, ne de bu \u015fiir annemin yazmalar\u0131 gibi olacak
\nBunlardan geriye bir ka\u00e7 el’lik as kalacak
\nRest \u00e7ekecek bir dahakine bu Ada
\nVe menzili \u015fa\u015facak
\nHi\u00e7 d\u00f6n\u00fclmeyecek geri
\nGerii<\/p>\n
Unutulmu\u015f bir \u015fey gibi
\nAdada tren sirenleri
\nEl salla ard\u0131m\u0131zdan \u015fapkanla
\n-Bin-
\nReveransla, hadi!
\nHadii<\/p>\n
Anlad\u0131m ki bu d\u00fczl\u00fckte
\nHerkes kendi \u015fapkas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda mutlu olacak
\nBir ya
\n\u011f\u011f
\nGibi.<\/p>\n
Merve \u015eEN<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
26 Temmuz-3 Eyl\u00fcl I. \u00d6fkeyle ko\u015ftu\u011fum her \u015fiir sonu Bir sabaha \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor mutlaka K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 do\u011fmaya mecburmu\u015f t\u00fcm sabahlar, \u00f6\u011frendim bak! Sen uyursun her g\u00fcn do\u011fumunda durmadan Ben uyand\u0131rmak i\u00e7in tutar\u0131m farbelalar\u0131ndan seni M\u0131r\u0131l m\u0131r\u0131l Sarmanla\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n iyice Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131m notalar yakalar Yakalar … Okumaya devam et