{"id":4987,"date":"2016-06-10T22:55:22","date_gmt":"2016-06-10T19:55:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=4987"},"modified":"2016-06-10T22:55:22","modified_gmt":"2016-06-10T19:55:22","slug":"2-akreple-yelkovan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=4987","title":{"rendered":"2 Akreple Yelkovan"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00c7ekilsem kendi \u00f6n\u00fcmden
\nve izin versem gitmeme.
\n\u00c7ok uzak yerler laz\u0131m de\u011fil, iki ad\u0131m \u00f6tesini g\u00f6rsem yeter.
\n\u0130lk k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda bassam \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131. <\/p>\n

Hayatla olan randevular\u0131mda
\nyelkovan ko\u015far ad\u0131mlarla gerisinde b\u0131rak\u0131rken beni zaman\u0131n
\nakrepler zehrini kan\u0131ma boca etmekle me\u015fguld\u00fc.
\nNe ara ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m son treni bilmiyorum,
\no g\u00fcn bug\u00fcnd\u00fcr yollarday\u0131m yal\u0131nayak.
\nAya\u011f\u0131ma batan dikenlerin s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r kalbimde hissetti\u011fim diyorum kendi kendime.
\n\u0130nanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bildi\u011fim halde.
\nKurdu\u011fum mahkemelerde kendimi sorguya \u00e7ekiyor,
\nm\u00fcebbet hapse \u00e7arpt\u0131r\u0131yorum sonra.
\nBir \u00f6m\u00fcr, iki \u00f6m\u00fcr, \u00fc\u00e7, be\u015f belki yedi \u00f6m\u00fcr birden hissediyorum
\nzaman\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerimde.
\n Akreple yelkovan\u0131n yar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ben kaybediyorum
\norada olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m halde.
\nHaks\u0131zl\u0131k bu! Ate\u015fe veriyorum kurdu\u011fum mahkemeyi. <\/p>\n

Hala i\u00e7imde bast\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f o \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131kla
\nbir ba\u015fka k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131na y\u00f6neliyorum.
\nBir hikmeti yok k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ama
\n insan beklentilerinin kendisini bekledi\u011fini san\u0131yor o k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015flar\u0131nda.
\n\u0130\u00e7 cebimizde saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 yan\u0131lg\u0131 bu bilmiyorum. <\/p>\n

G\u00f6lgelerin d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc duvarlara bak\u0131p
\nger\u00e7eklik olarak alg\u0131l\u0131yorum belli belirsiz siluetleri,
\nkendi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma bile \u015f\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle inan\u0131rken.
\nD\u00f6nsem \u015fu k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131ndan
\ng\u00f6lgem yine yan\u0131mda olur mu diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.
\nTam bu s\u0131rada
\nakreple yelkovan yine aleyhime i\u015fler \u00e7eviriyorlar.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcp durduklar\u0131 dairede
\nbeni bir \u00e7emberin i\u00e7ine hapsettiklerinin
\nfark\u0131nda de\u011filler mi acaba. <\/p>\n

Ben bu \u015fekilde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken g\u00f6lgeler sessiz sedas\u0131z ayr\u0131l\u0131yor yan\u0131mdan.
\nYine bast\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, akrep, ben ve yelkovan kal\u0131yoruz k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda.
\nNe yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131za dair bir fikrimiz yok,
\ngidilecek bir k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131 da kalmad\u0131.
\nYelkovan kendi yolunda,
\nakrep zehrinin son damlas\u0131yla
\nkan\u0131ma kar\u0131\u015f\u0131p yol almaya ba\u015fl\u0131yor damarlar\u0131mda,
\nzaman
\nson randevumuzu da ka\u00e7\u0131rmam\u0131n intikam\u0131n\u0131
\nyine bir \u015feyler alarak benden \u00f6detiyor. <\/p>\n

Bo\u011faz\u0131mda d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenen \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yutkunarak
\noturuyorum son k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda.
\nYelkovan menzile vard\u0131\u011f\u0131nda
\nakrep zehrini ruhuma ge\u00e7irecek
\nve zaman silecek beni b\u00fct\u00fcn bu g\u00f6lgelerin i\u00e7inden.
\nYeni g\u00f6lgeler i\u00e7in yeni \u00e7emberler \u00e7izecek akreple yelkovan,
\nzaman yine ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bile bile
\nrandevular ayarlayacak yeni kurbanlar\u0131na.
\nVe ben,
\nBilmem ka\u00e7 ki\u015fi daha olup \u00e7\u00f6kece\u011fim
\nka\u00e7 k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131na daha.
\n<\/em><\/p>\n

Bu eserin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (Mavroliva) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00c7ekilsem kendi \u00f6n\u00fcmden ve izin versem gitmeme. \u00c7ok uzak yerler laz\u0131m de\u011fil, iki ad\u0131m \u00f6tesini g\u00f6rsem yeter. \u0130lk k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda bassam \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131. Hayatla olan randevular\u0131mda yelkovan ko\u015far ad\u0131mlarla gerisinde b\u0131rak\u0131rken beni zaman\u0131n akrepler zehrini kan\u0131ma boca etmekle me\u015fguld\u00fc. Ne ara … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1077,9],"tags":[1807,1079],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4987"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4987"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4987\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4988,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4987\/revisions\/4988"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4987"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4987"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4987"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}