{"id":413,"date":"2015-04-30T09:46:06","date_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:46:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=413"},"modified":"2015-04-30T09:46:06","modified_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:46:06","slug":"kelimelerle-yakaris","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=413","title":{"rendered":"Kelimelerle Yakar\u0131\u015f…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kendimi farkl\u0131 bir yerde bulaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 -r\u00fcyalar\u0131n etkisi bu olsa gerek- d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, ayn\u0131 yer, ayn\u0131 yatak, ayn\u0131 duvarlar ve hayat\u0131n \u00fczerinde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131m kalan \u2013bir \u015fekilde biriken- d\u00fc\u015fler. Devam etmek, en az\u0131ndan belki de bu hayat\u0131n ta kendisi. Esnekli\u011fini akan kum tanelerine bor\u00e7lu k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klar\u0131m, en az\u0131ndan onlara yeniden bir \u015fans vermek ad\u0131na. Zamanla de\u011fi\u015fmeyece\u011fi savunulan do\u011frular ge\u00e7mi\u015fe mahk\u00fbm ya\u015fayarak yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 oluyor. Giderek ya\u015fama benzeyen tekd\u00fcze hayaller, \u00e7izgi \u00fczerine s\u0131ralanan kelimeler \u2013e\u011fik yazmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 beceremedim-\u00fczerimde vefa borcu b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m beklentilerim. Arz talep \u00fczerineydi hayattan t\u00fcm istedi\u011fim, ne kadar istedimse, o kadar uzakla\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bazen de bunu bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, bir uzakla\u015fma, bir yakar\u0131\u015f; Kelimelere s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131larak onlar\u0131 her an yan\u0131mda tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak \u2013san\u0131r\u0131m kendimi en rahat b\u00f6yle ifade ediyorum-. Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 etrafa serpilmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman bir tek an\u2019lar benimle kal\u0131yor. Yan\u0131mda yanan sokak lambas\u0131, t\u00fct\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131kan duman\u0131 seyrediyor, kendimce her dumana bir \u015feyler \u00e7iziyor, hayallerimi g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum onlarda. R\u00fczg\u00e2r da dost bu gece bana, hayallerime sahip \u00e7\u0131kmam i\u00e7in sakince beni seyrediyor, sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir azal\u0131yor bir art\u0131yor-. Art\u0131k her \u015fey m\u00fcmk\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

@arpaslanbudak<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n

Bu \u015fiirin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (M.Alparslan Budak) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kendimi farkl\u0131 bir yerde bulaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 -r\u00fcyalar\u0131n etkisi bu olsa gerek- d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, ayn\u0131 yer, ayn\u0131 yatak, ayn\u0131 duvarlar ve hayat\u0131n \u00fczerinde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131m kalan \u2013bir \u015fekilde biriken- d\u00fc\u015fler. Devam etmek, en az\u0131ndan belki de bu hayat\u0131n ta kendisi. Esnekli\u011fini … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,169],"tags":[179],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/413"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=413"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/413\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":415,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/413\/revisions\/415"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=413"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=413"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=413"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}