{"id":405,"date":"2015-04-30T09:42:56","date_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:42:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=405"},"modified":"2015-04-30T09:42:56","modified_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:42:56","slug":"kacinilmaz-bedel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=405","title":{"rendered":"Ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz Bedel&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<h1><a href=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-408\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o-300x191.jpg\" alt=\"177136_258178977620701_455217017_o\" width=\"300\" height=\"191\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o-300x191.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o-1024x653.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o-471x300.jpg 471w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/177136_258178977620701_455217017_o.jpg 1977w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/h1>\n<p>Bir bedel \u00f6dedi\u011fimin \u00e7oktand\u0131r fark\u0131nday\u0131m-belki de daha fazlas\u0131-. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f hayat\u0131mdaki insana verdi\u011fim ac\u0131lar\u0131n ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u015fimdi ben \u00e7ekiyorum. Yapt\u0131klar\u0131m ve yapacaklar\u0131ma kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k bir bedel bu, \u015fimdi de ruhu beni b\u0131rakm\u0131yor, k\u00f6\u015fe bucak ka\u00e7\u0131yorum ondan. O y\u00fczy\u0131llarca vermi\u015f oldu\u011fum ac\u0131n\u0131n bedelini \u00f6demekten ka\u00e7\u0131yorum, ka\u00e7arken de akl\u0131mda hep ayn\u0131 \u015fey, nas\u0131l kurtulaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yollar\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n<p>Bu k\u00f6\u015feye s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k hissinden nas\u0131l olur da ka\u00e7abilir, bu labirentten nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131kabilirim? O benim i\u00e7in duygu gemime ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m fazla y\u00fck gibiydi bu saatten sonra. Tutkuyla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fum o insana t\u00fcm bunlar\u0131 anlatamam, bir imgeden ibaret art\u0131k. Belki de bu y\u00fczy\u0131l i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7mi\u015fi aramam gerekiyor. Fakat her \u015feyden \u00f6nce uyumal\u0131y\u0131m. Uyumak, olanlar\u0131 bir kez daha d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek i\u00e7in verilen bir f\u0131rsat gibi, yola \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce yap\u0131lan son haz\u0131rl\u0131k gibi. Bunlar\u0131n \u00f6tesinde uyumak, a\u015fklardan, sevin\u00e7lerden, belki de t\u00fcm ya\u015fananlardan daha g\u00fczel&#8230;\u00a0 Cezbedici bir \u00f6zelli\u011fi var.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bir bedel \u00f6dedi\u011fimin \u00e7oktand\u0131r fark\u0131nday\u0131m-belki de daha fazlas\u0131-. Ge\u00e7mi\u015f hayat\u0131mdaki insana verdi\u011fim ac\u0131lar\u0131n ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u015fimdi ben \u00e7ekiyorum. Yapt\u0131klar\u0131m ve yapacaklar\u0131ma kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k bir bedel bu, \u015fimdi de ruhu beni b\u0131rakm\u0131yor, k\u00f6\u015fe bucak ka\u00e7\u0131yorum ondan. O y\u00fczy\u0131llarca vermi\u015f oldu\u011fum ac\u0131n\u0131n bedelini \u00f6demekten &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=405\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,169],"tags":[177],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/405"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=405"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/405\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":409,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/405\/revisions\/409"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=405"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=405"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=405"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}