{"id":400,"date":"2015-04-30T09:41:20","date_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:41:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=400"},"modified":"2015-04-30T09:41:20","modified_gmt":"2015-04-30T06:41:20","slug":"seni-sevmenin-tatsiz-hazzi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=400","title":{"rendered":"Seni Sevmenin Tats\u0131z Hazz\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"<h1><a href=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-403\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o-300x208.jpg\" alt=\"277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o\" width=\"300\" height=\"208\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o-300x208.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o-1024x709.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o-433x300.jpg 433w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/04\/277275_298072580298007_1346842753_o.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/h1>\n<p>Seni sevmek i\u00e7imde \u00f6len askerler gibiydi. Bana her bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n cesetler \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 i\u00e7imden. Ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurlar \u00f6l\u00fc ele ge\u00e7irirdi. Ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurlara kar\u0131\u015fan her bir g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7imde ba\u015flayan \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin bir habercisiydi, nefesimi kesen zamanlarda g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 nem etkisi i\u015fte. \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00f6l\u00fcleri atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama olmad\u0131. Sana her bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda daha \u00e7ok can kaybediyordum. Bu a\u015fkta bana teselli veren bir de battaniyem vard\u0131. Ona sar\u0131l\u0131r, uzun uzun seni anlat\u0131rd\u0131m. Ba\u015f edemedi\u011fim zamanlardaysa alt\u0131na saklan\u0131r, beni korumas\u0131n\u0131 isterdim. Seni anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlardaysa usulca dinlerdi beni. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 anlatt\u0131m ona. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndaki ate\u015fte t\u00fcm g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131 eritti\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim. Kirpiklerinden d\u00f6k\u00fclen alayc\u0131 bak\u0131\u015f alt\u0131nda ilgisizce bakan donuk g\u00f6zlerin etraf\u0131nda oldu\u011funun da fark\u0131nday\u0131m. Her bak\u0131\u015fta patlayan \u015farapnel par\u00e7alar\u0131, binlerce ceset&#8230; Buram buram her kar\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm kokan yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda canland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa her koydu\u011fumda. Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemedim kar\u015f\u0131nda. Uzun suskunluklar\u0131m oldu, d\u00fcz sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda akt\u0131 ve yere d\u00fc\u015fen inci taneleri gibi etrafa sa\u00e7\u0131larak uzakla\u015ft\u0131 senden.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><a class=\"ProfileHeaderCard-screennameLink u-linkComplex js-nav\" href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/arpaslanbudak\">@<span class=\"u-linkComplex-target\">arpaslanbudak<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Bu \u015fiirin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (M.Alparslan Budak) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Seni sevmek i\u00e7imde \u00f6len askerler gibiydi. Bana her bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n cesetler \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 i\u00e7imden. Ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurlar \u00f6l\u00fc ele ge\u00e7irirdi. Ya\u011fan ya\u011fmurlara kar\u0131\u015fan her bir g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7imde ba\u015flayan \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin bir habercisiydi, nefesimi kesen zamanlarda g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 nem etkisi i\u015fte. \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00f6l\u00fcleri atmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=400\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,169],"tags":[176],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/400"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=400"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/400\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":404,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/400\/revisions\/404"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=400"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=400"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=400"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}