{"id":3501,"date":"2015-10-14T22:07:20","date_gmt":"2015-10-14T19:07:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=3501"},"modified":"2015-10-14T22:07:20","modified_gmt":"2015-10-14T19:07:20","slug":"biliyorum-ama-bilemiyorum-sanirim-elveda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=3501","title":{"rendered":"Biliyorum Ama Bilemiyorum&#8230; San\u0131r\u0131m Elveda&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Ge\u00e7enlerde bir kitap okurken i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7en bir s\u00f6z\u00fc koluma yazm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, bug\u00fcn dalg\u0131n dalg\u0131n dururken ili\u015fti g\u00f6z\u00fcme.<br \/>\n\u2018Ve bu d\u00fcnya ge\u00e7icidir.\u2019<br \/>\nHer sabah y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yolda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk, elleri buz kesmi\u015f, g\u00f6zleri alev ate\u015f.<br \/>\nKolumu yoklad\u0131m \u00f6b\u00fcr elimle, neden ge\u00e7miyorsun be d\u00fcnya!<br \/>\nSen kimsin, ben kimim, bu d\u00fcnya neden b\u00f6yle?<br \/>\nYine hayk\u0131ras\u0131m tutmu\u015f;<br \/>\n \u2019 L\u00fctfen art\u0131k masallar anlatmay\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131za.\u2019 diye.<br \/>\nPrensler yok prensesler yok, cad\u0131 kazan\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f d\u00fcnya.<br \/>\nBuzlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde yanan alevlerden bahsediyorum tam \u015fu s\u0131rada. G\u00f6ren var m\u0131 bilmiyorum.<br \/>\nBir \u00e7ocuk biliyorum b\u00f6ylesi bir y\u00fcrekle ya\u015f\u0131yor.<br \/>\nBir yer biliyorum iyinin h\u00e2kim oldu\u011fu, bir masal biliyorum gecelerin ard\u0131nda sakl\u0131 kalm\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nBir diyar biliyorum g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, bir oba.<br \/>\nDallar\u0131nda ku\u015flar\u0131n \u015fak\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir bah\u00e7e biliyorum.<br \/>\nEstetikten diyalekti\u011fe,  anar\u015fizmden Gestalt\u2019a kadar bir \u015feyler biliyorum<br \/>\nAma \u015fu bozuk d\u00fczeni neyle nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilemiyorum.<br \/>\n \u0130syana de\u011fmi\u015f kalemin diyorsun, yok \u00f6yle bir \u015fey.<br \/>\nYazamam baz\u0131 \u015feyleri \u00f6yle uluorta ba\u011f\u0131ramam, bil ki baz\u0131 \u015feyler hapistir sessiz seslerde.<br \/>\n\u0130mk\u00e2nlar\u0131m\u0131z geni\u015fliyor s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131z geni\u015fliyor daha \u00e7ok hapis oluyoruz kendimize.<br \/>\nTezata kafa tutar ya\u015famlardan el sall\u0131yoruz birbirimize<br \/>\nBak bug\u00fcnde g\u00f6\u00e7medi beden d\u00fcnyadan ama ne \u00e7ok \u00f6ld\u00fck be!<br \/>\nBeden bir hapishanedir diye diye dolanan bir mecnun bilirdim<br \/>\n\u015eimdilerde anlar oldum onun diline doland\u0131\u011f\u0131 hapishaneyi.<br \/>\nHayat kula\u011f\u0131ma f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yor gibi, bu beden bir hapishane!<br \/>\nBu hapiste kalacaks\u0131n, k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyler g\u00f6receksin, cezan bu.<br \/>\nBeden bir hapishanedir, d\u00fcnyaya gelmemiz ceza ve i\u015fleyi\u015fi bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en a\u011f\u0131r infaz.<br \/>\nBirileri bana k\u0131z\u0131yor birileri k\u0131z\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekenleri g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor.<br \/>\nBirileri bir yerlerde k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyler yap\u0131yor, birileri bu k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feyleri dile getirenleri sen ne k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fcn diye ta\u015fa tutuyor.<br \/>\nBirileri yoldan \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131 belli.<br \/>\nVe yine birileri bir yerlerde umut bizim derken bir di\u011ferleri umut biziz diye b\u00f6b\u00fcrleniyor.<br \/>\nNe dolaplar d\u00f6n\u00fcyor da ge\u00e7miyor \u015fu d\u00fcnya,<br \/>\nNe zamanlar ge\u00e7iyor da bir tek ac\u0131 anlar m\u0131hlan\u0131p kal\u0131yor i\u00e7imizde.<br \/>\nVe yine o s\u00f6z g\u00f6z k\u0131rp\u0131yor ge\u00e7meyen bunca cefaya.<br \/>\n\u2018Bu d\u00fcnya ge\u00e7icidir\u2019 g\u00f6\u00e7men karde\u015f, elveda.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n telif hakk\u0131 \u015fairin (Mavroliva) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ge\u00e7enlerde bir kitap okurken i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7en bir s\u00f6z\u00fc koluma yazm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, bug\u00fcn dalg\u0131n dalg\u0131n dururken ili\u015fti g\u00f6z\u00fcme. \u2018Ve bu d\u00fcnya ge\u00e7icidir.\u2019 Her sabah y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm yolda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk, elleri buz kesmi\u015f, g\u00f6zleri alev ate\u015f. Kolumu yoklad\u0131m \u00f6b\u00fcr elimle, neden ge\u00e7miyorsun &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=3501\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,1077],"tags":[1437,1079],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3501"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3501"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3501\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3502,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3501\/revisions\/3502"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3501"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3501"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3501"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}