{"id":2852,"date":"2015-09-02T23:22:36","date_gmt":"2015-09-02T20:22:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=2852"},"modified":"2015-09-02T23:24:27","modified_gmt":"2015-09-02T20:24:27","slug":"2852","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=2852","title":{"rendered":"Say ki.."},"content":{"rendered":"

Say ki sab\u0131rla yeni g\u00fcn\u00fc bekleyen \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n masumiyetinden utan\u0131p t\u00fckettim sabr\u0131m\u0131.
\nSay ki sokakta ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131, huzursuz bir evdeki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sekize katlar.
\nSay ki ben bir yazar\u0131n hi\u00e7 dile getirmedi\u011fi son hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131m.
\nSay ki k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerden d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm masum bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne.
\nSay ki hi\u00e7 g\u00fcnaha bula\u015fmam\u0131\u015f masumlar\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 var \u00fczerimde.
\nSay ki g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyen t\u00fcm g\u00f6zlerin yas\u0131n\u0131 tutuyorum.
\nSay ki bunca l\u00fcks\u00fcn i\u00e7inde \u015f\u0131mar\u0131kl\u0131k yaparken ufac\u0131k, ayakkab\u0131 boyayan bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 ili\u015fiyor g\u00f6z\u00fcme.
\nSay ki utanc\u0131m a\u011f\u0131r geliyor omuzlar\u0131ma, ondan belim b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f.
\nSay ki babas\u0131yla elele gezen \u00e7ocu\u011fu k\u0131skand\u0131\u011f\u0131m esnada, yine ba\u015fka bir yerde babas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6vd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00e7ocu\u011fun sesini duyunca bir isyan y\u00fckseliyor i\u00e7imde.
\nSay ki bah\u00e7esinde g\u00fclleri hi\u00e7 bitmeyenlerin g\u00fclleri ye\u015fersin diye d\u00f6k\u00fcyorum g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131.
\nSay ki ac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n bir hi\u00e7 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm korku dolu bak\u0131\u015flarla karde\u015finin \u00f6l\u00fc bedenine bakan \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerinde.
\nSay ki falan \u00fclkede duvara yaz\u0131lan ‘Bir g\u00fcn sava\u015f bitecek ben \u015fiirime geri d\u00f6nece\u011fim’ yaz\u0131s\u0131na tak\u0131l\u0131p kalm\u0131\u015f, o g\u00fcn gelene dek \u015fiire k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm.
\nSay ki iyi insanlar\u0131 s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fler yerlerinden, yurtlar\u0131ndan, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcmden hi\u00e7bir yere bu ait olamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m.
\nSay ki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden ya\u011fan ya\u011fmur \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri ye\u015fertmi\u015f bir ben ye\u015ferememi\u015fim.
\nSay ki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k son bulsun diye g\u00f6lgemi bile yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015f\u0131m.
\nSay ki ac\u0131ya g\u00f6z yumuldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00f6fkemden deliye d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm.
\nSay ki u\u00e7up giden her balonla bir yerden bir yere g\u00f6\u00e7 etmi\u015f, yine de \u015fu g\u00f6\u00e7ebe ruhumu dizginleyecek bir yer bulamam\u0131\u015f\u0131m.
\nSay ki ilk yalanla kaybolmu\u015f d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fck, ilk yalan\u0131 bulup \u00f6ld\u00fcrmek amac\u0131nday\u0131m.
\nSay ki y\u0131llard\u0131r umut biriktiriyorum ceplerimde umudu olmayanlar\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131na usulca b\u0131rak\u0131p ka\u00e7mak i\u00e7in.
\nSay ki \u00fcz\u00fclmesinler diye b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcleri al\u0131p ka\u00e7\u0131yorum k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n elinden.
\nSay ki u\u011furlayan\u0131 olmayan her yolcunun pe\u015finden ben el sall\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki isimsiz her mezar ba\u015f\u0131nda bir yan\u0131m\u0131 topra\u011fa g\u00f6m\u00fcyorum.
\nSay ki masuma s\u0131k\u0131lan her kur\u015funda ilk ben vuruluyorum.
\nSay ki kafese hapsolan ilk ku\u015f benim.
\nSay ki duymayanlara inat b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fczellikleri hayk\u0131r\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki d\u00fcnya d\u00fczelsin diye g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne dualar g\u00f6nderiyorum.
\nSay ki u\u011fruna inanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m 1000 turna efsanesinin, 999. turnan\u0131n kanad\u0131na bir bar\u0131\u015f \u015fiiri yaz\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki ac\u0131 a\u011f\u0131tlardan ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015fey duymayan kulaklara a\u015fk \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki kimse a\u011flamas\u0131n diye herkesin yerine ben a\u011fl\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki umut a\u011fac\u0131na bir \u00e7aputta ben ba\u011fl\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki ac\u0131s\u0131ndan k\u00fcle d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f \u015fairin ad\u0131na k\u00fcllerimi denize ben savuruyorum.
\nSay ki bu koca d\u00fcnyay\u0131 bir avu\u00e7 insan\u0131 bar\u0131nd\u0131ramad\u0131 diye bir ka\u011f\u0131t gibi buru\u015fturup f\u0131rlat\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki bir suna\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda, zamans\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcmler son bulsun diye kendimi kurban ediyorum.
\nSay ki karanl\u0131klar ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n diye kendimi yak\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki s\u00f6ylenecek t\u00fcm yalanlar\u0131 ben s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum, d\u00fcnyaya daha fazla yalan b\u0131rakm\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fler diye her ad\u0131mda ben k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yorum.
\nSay ki sevilmeyen her y\u00fcre\u011fi b\u00fct\u00fcn kalbimle ben seviyorum.
\nSay ki bo\u015flu\u011fa uzanan her eli ben tutuyorum.
\nSay ki d\u00fcnya bir g\u00fcn g\u00fczel bir yer olur diye bah\u00e7eme g\u00fcller ekiyorum.
\nSay ki \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc unutma diye g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcne ku\u015flar konduruyorum.
\nSay ki sen b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 okumad\u0131n bense yazm\u0131yorum.<\/em><\/p>\n

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Say ki sab\u0131rla yeni g\u00fcn\u00fc bekleyen \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n masumiyetinden utan\u0131p t\u00fckettim sabr\u0131m\u0131. Say ki sokakta ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131, huzursuz bir evdeki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sekize katlar. Say ki ben bir yazar\u0131n hi\u00e7 dile getirmedi\u011fi son hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131y\u0131m. Say ki k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerden d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1077,9],"tags":[1079,1171],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2852"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2852"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2852\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2854,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2852\/revisions\/2854"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2852"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2852"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2852"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}