{"id":2741,"date":"2015-08-30T20:12:04","date_gmt":"2015-08-30T17:12:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=2741"},"modified":"2015-08-30T20:14:27","modified_gmt":"2015-08-30T17:14:27","slug":"burasi-sair-duragi-hislerin-harman-oldugu-yer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=2741","title":{"rendered":"Buras\u0131 \u015eair Dura\u011f\u0131… Hislerin Harman Oldu\u011fu Yer…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Bak buras\u0131 \u015eair Dura\u011f\u0131.
\n\u015eairin \u015fiirle bulu\u015ftu\u011fu yerden f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yorum.
\nEndi\u015fe duymay\u0131n. Bunca kanl\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7akl\u0131 g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc i\u00e7inde dahi duymak isteyen ki\u015fi her f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131y\u0131 duyabilir. Dinleyin yeter.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u015eimdi size bir itirafta bulunaca\u011f\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fikarl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla i\u00e7inizde dolanan bir ger\u00e7ek. Buralar\u0131n yabanc\u0131s\u0131y\u0131m. Yol, yordam bilmem. Buralar nereler mi? \u015eairin \u015fiirin son m\u0131sras\u0131nda kendini asaca\u011f\u0131 yer. Kalemin m\u00fcrekkebe k\u00fcsece\u011fi, ka\u011f\u0131ttan u\u00e7aklar\u0131n ger\u00e7eklerine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, ku\u015flar\u0131n mermilerle \u00e7arp\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6t\u00fc yerler. K\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u00fck anlam\u0131na bakmaya gerek yok. Size burda huzur yok, bar\u0131\u015f yok, sevgi yok, \u015fiir yok desem b\u00f6yle bir k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hi\u00e7bir s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn tasvir edemeyece\u011fini anlars\u0131n\u0131z. Ben de edemem. Size yaln\u0131zca 0 ve 1’leri anlat\u0131r\u0131m, varla yoklar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yollar\u0131 ad\u0131m ad\u0131m ac\u0131 dolu nice b\u00f6yle yerler var. Zaman zaman her birinde bulunuyorum k\u0131sa molalarla. Biliyorum da konu\u015fuyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7ok fazla ac\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Da\u011f\u0131lan onca d\u00fc\u015fle birlikte ben de biraz da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131m. Hatta da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131m. Mesela az \u00f6nce as\u0131l konumuzu..<\/p>\n

\u0130tiraf\u0131m tatmin edici de\u011fil biliyorum. Sizi hayrete d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmeyecek. Zaten yeterince d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn\u00fczd\u00fcr. Art\u0131k yetmeli \u00f6yle de\u011fil mi?
\nKendimden gitti\u011fim her yerden yine kendime d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Ama \u015fimdi yeni gidi\u015flere kalk\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Neresi oldu\u011funu bilmiyorum ama nas\u0131l olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biliyorum. Beni sevecekler \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc anlatamad\u0131klar\u0131 \u015feyleri dillendirece\u011fim. Benden nefret edecekler. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar\u0131n s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa vuraca\u011f\u0131m. Sonra onlara \u015fiirler g\u00f6t\u00fcrece\u011fim sizlerden. Ve \u00f6z\u00fcr dileyece\u011fim.<\/p>\n

As\u0131l hatan\u0131n m\u00fcrekkep bula\u015fmas\u0131 gereken ellere kanlar\u0131n bula\u015fmas\u0131yla, \u015fiire d\u00f6\u015fek olmas\u0131 gereken ka\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n u\u00e7aklara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesiyle, ku\u015flar\u0131n g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc birer birer terk etmesiyle ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyece\u011fim. \u015eiirlerde sava\u015flar\u0131n son buldu\u011funu, ka\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131n kalemlere b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ku\u015flar\u0131n tek derdinin bize \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hat\u0131rlatmak oldu\u011funu anlataca\u011f\u0131m. Sonra bana inanmayacaklar, dokuzuncu k\u00f6yden de kovulaca\u011f\u0131m..<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

Bu eserin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (Mavroliva) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bak buras\u0131 \u015eair Dura\u011f\u0131. \u015eairin \u015fiirle bulu\u015ftu\u011fu yerden f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yorum. Endi\u015fe duymay\u0131n. Bunca kanl\u0131 b\u0131\u00e7akl\u0131 g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc i\u00e7inde dahi duymak isteyen ki\u015fi her f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131y\u0131 duyabilir. Dinleyin yeter. \u015eimdi size bir itirafta bulunaca\u011f\u0131m. B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u015fikarl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla i\u00e7inizde dolanan bir ger\u00e7ek. Buralar\u0131n yabanc\u0131s\u0131y\u0131m. Yol, yordam … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,1077],"tags":[1127,1079],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2741"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2741"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2741\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2744,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2741\/revisions\/2744"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2741"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2741"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2741"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}