Gece yar\u0131s\u0131, saat 00.00 Bir\u00e7ok insan \u00e7oktan uykusuna dald\u0131, belki de bir\u00e7o\u011fu uykusunu ald\u0131, al\u0131yor. Bense uykuma a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m sava\u015f\u0131m\u0131n, sat\u0131rlar\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fen notlar\u0131yla ha\u015f\u0131r ne\u015firim. \u0130\u00e7in de benim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, senin fazlas\u0131yla ge\u00e7ti\u011fin notlar\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015fen notlar biraz gaml\u0131, biraz kederli, fazlas\u0131yla duygu dolu. Dem vurdum, gecenin sessizli\u011fine bam teli yutkunma sesiyle \u015fenleniyor. Bo\u011faz\u0131ma tak\u0131l\u0131yor sensizli\u011fim. Saat 00.15 tam deminde demlenirken geldi akl\u0131ma yine sensizli\u011fim, gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 vurdu y\u00fcz\u00fcme sensizli\u011fi uykumu almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam k\u00e2buslar s\u00fcsler r\u00fcyalar\u0131m\u0131. Bir film olsan her salise, saniye, dakika, saat; s\u00fcslesen g\u00f6zlerimi d\u00fc\u015flere d\u00fc\u015fmeden d\u00fc\u015flere dalsam! Senli olan anlar\u0131n tad\u0131na doymasam hi\u00e7 bitmese o anlar. Sava\u015flar\u0131n galibi oldu\u011fumu da bilmiyorum, emin oldu\u011fum tek bir ger\u00e7ek varsa uykumun beni yenmesine izin vermiyorum. Seni doyas\u0131ya ya\u015famak varken, ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcndendir ki, beyaz sayfalar\u0131yla konu\u015fma \u00e7abalar\u0131m. Uykuma dalmaya kalksam, \u00fc\u015fenmesen bir kez de gelsen s\u00fcslesen r\u00fcyalar\u0131m\u0131, r\u00fcyada da olsa \u00e7izsek mutlu\u011fun resmini g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn devasa b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne. Manzaram\u0131 siyaha boyad\u0131m sen yokken, i\u00e7im de karard\u0131 katran karas\u0131 gibi. Do\u011f i\u00e7imde, g\u00fcne\u015f gibi ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa kavu\u015fsun i\u00e7im, katran karas\u0131 siyah utans\u0131n.<\/p>\n
\u201cAte\u015f d\u00fc\u015fer, kalbine
\nSanki k\u0131yamet, yeri.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Bu eserin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (\u00dcnal OK) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Gece yar\u0131s\u0131, saat 00.00 Bir\u00e7ok insan \u00e7oktan uykusuna dald\u0131, belki de bir\u00e7o\u011fu uykusunu ald\u0131, al\u0131yor. Bense uykuma a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m sava\u015f\u0131m\u0131n, sat\u0131rlar\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fen notlar\u0131yla ha\u015f\u0131r ne\u015firim. \u0130\u00e7in de benim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, senin fazlas\u0131yla ge\u00e7ti\u011fin notlar\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015fen notlar biraz gaml\u0131, biraz kederli, fazlas\u0131yla duygu … Okumaya devam et