{"id":2307,"date":"2015-08-11T10:48:59","date_gmt":"2015-08-11T07:48:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=2307"},"modified":"2015-08-11T10:48:59","modified_gmt":"2015-08-11T07:48:59","slug":"kerem-yildizin-kaleminden-ii","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=2307","title":{"rendered":"Kerem YILDIZ&#8217;\u0131n Kaleminden II&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em><em>Benim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayatta hi\u00e7bir acelem olmad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc an\u0131 ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131, nerede nas\u0131l davran\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 ve yeri geldimi a\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131 iyi bildim. Her insan gibi defalarca yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131m, hakk\u0131m da onca s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylendi ama hi\u00e7birini umursamad\u0131m. Benim kim oldu\u011fumu benden iyi kimse bilemez bu nedenle ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n benim i\u00e7in s\u00f6yledikleri hep \u00f6nemsizdi! Nede olsa herkes kendi bildi\u011fini okuyor, benim ne s\u00f6yledi\u011fimin bir \u00f6nemi olurmuyordu.<br \/>\nArgoya k\u00fcf\u00fcre kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m bir bayana iltifat etmeyi iyi bildim ama yine de her zaman ki gibi yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131m. Ger\u00e7i kimseyi yarg\u0131layamazd\u0131m hata bendeydi farkl\u0131 olmay\u0131 ben se\u00e7tim! Evet bende hata yapt\u0131m hem de bir\u00e7ok kez her insan gibi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Fakat benim fark\u0131m az \u00f6nce de s\u00f6yledi\u011fim gibi farkl\u0131 olmakt\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemesini bildim, affetmeyi erdemli bir davran\u0131\u015f sayd\u0131m ve hatalar\u0131m\u0131 tekrarlamama \u00e7abas\u0131 g\u00f6sterdim. Kimi zaman ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131, kimi zaman ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z oldum&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Y\u00fczlerce \u015fiir, onlarca s\u00f6z onlarca yaz\u0131 yazd\u0131m kim i\u00e7in? Ne i\u00e7in? Neden yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmeden.<br \/>\nHep &#8216;a\u015fk adam\u0131 dediler&#8217; ama ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 bende benimsediler ve h\u00fczn\u00fcm\u00fc mutluluklar\u0131yla hissettiler!<br \/>\nEvet hayat \u00e7ok ac\u0131mas\u0131z herkes ister hayat\u0131nda birisinin olmas\u0131n\u0131 bende istedim her s\u0131radan insan gibi; &#8221;hem sevgili, hem dost, hem de deva dertlerime&#8221; ama olmad\u0131. \u015eunu da iyi anlad\u0131m ki insan sevgiyi, sevday\u0131 ne kadar uzakta ararsa o kadar yan\u0131l\u0131yor&#8230;<br \/>\nBen hep ikinci plan da kalmay\u0131 bilmi\u015fimdir. Gerek arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, gerek ailemi, gerekse yak\u0131n \u00e7evremi daima \u00f6n planda g\u00f6stermi\u015fimdir. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 d\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fleriyle yarg\u0131lamam zaten yarg\u0131lamak da ne haddime! Allah kulunu kendine nas\u0131l lay\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcrse \u00f6yle yarat\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden siz siz olun kimsenin d\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc alay konusu etmeyin unutmay\u0131n ki m\u00fcsl\u00fcman m\u00fcsl\u00fcman\u0131n ay\u0131b\u0131n\u0131 kapatan insand\u0131r, g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131karma \u00e7abas\u0131na giren de\u011fil! Kimsenin ne beni nede ba\u015fka birisini be\u011fenmesini de beklemiyorum ama kar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda her kim olursa olsun sayg\u0131y\u0131 hep hak ediyor!<br \/>\nHer insan\u0131n hatas\u0131, her insan\u0131n kusuru vard\u0131r kimse benim yok diyemez!<\/p>\n<p>Ben hep susmay\u0131 tercih ettim benim kusurum bu oldu. Asl\u0131nda bak\u0131l\u0131rsa \u015fairinde dedi\u011fi gibi; &#8221; susmakta bir cevapt\u0131r, &#8216;ANLAYANA&#8217; ama anlayan\u0131 bulamad\u0131m.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan ne kadar \u00e7ok \u015fey ya\u015farsa o kadar olgunla\u015f\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczdendir &#8216;ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131md\u0131r, yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131m&#8217; deyi\u015flerim. E\u011fer beni olgun birisi olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsan\u0131z bu benim ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131mdand\u0131r ve az \u00f6nce de s\u00f6yledi\u011fim gibi hep ikinci planda kalmay\u0131 tercih etmemdendir.<br \/>\nA\u015fk\u0131 soranlara tek cevab\u0131md\u0131r bilmiyorum! \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ger\u00e7ek a\u015fk m\u00e2neviyat\u0131 olan a\u015fkt\u0131r ve bu a\u015fk\u0131 ya\u015famayan be\u015ferlerin a\u015fk\u0131 yaland\u0131r!<br \/>\n\u0130nsanlar\u0131 kolayca tan\u0131r oldum bir bak\u0131\u015f da, bir \u00e7ift s\u00f6zde&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u015eairinde dedi\u011fi gibi;<br \/>\nG\u00f6zler kalbin aynas\u0131d\u0131r yalan nedir bilmez onlar.<br \/>\nSiyah mavi ye\u015fil olsun a\u015fk\u0131 inkar etmez onlar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Not: Uzun uzun yazmama gerek yok k\u0131saca anlayana, ben!<br \/>\nHi\u00e7bir insan ya\u015fanmadan bilinmez, hissedilmez, ke\u015ffedilmez&#8230;<br \/>\nHer ne kadar tan\u0131yorum deseniz de her \u015fey bir b\u00fct\u00fcn olunca belli olur.<\/em><\/em><\/p>\n<p>..<\/p>\n<p>Bu eserin telif hakk\u0131 yazar\u0131n (Kerem YILDIZ) kendisine ve\/veya temsilcilerine aittir. Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n izin al\u0131nmadan kopyalanmas\u0131 ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131 5846 say\u0131l\u0131 Fikir ve Sanat Eserleri Yasas\u0131na g\u00f6re su\u00e7tur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Benim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m hayatta hi\u00e7bir acelem olmad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc an\u0131 ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131, nerede nas\u0131l davran\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 ve yeri geldimi a\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131 iyi bildim. Her insan gibi defalarca yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131m, hakk\u0131m da onca s\u00f6z s\u00f6ylendi ama hi\u00e7birini umursamad\u0131m. 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