{"id":12066,"date":"2025-10-20T16:02:58","date_gmt":"2025-10-20T13:02:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12066"},"modified":"2025-10-20T16:02:59","modified_gmt":"2025-10-20T13:02:59","slug":"gec-kalinmislik-hicbir-sey-yapmamazliktan-yegmis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12066","title":{"rendered":"Ge\u00e7 Kal\u0131nm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k Hi\u00e7bir \u015eey Yapmamazl\u0131ktan Ye\u011fmi\u015f\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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D\u00fcnyan\u0131n tela\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde var olma \u00e7abas\u0131na tak\u0131lan onca unutkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, onca g\u00f6n\u00fcl koyan\u0131m\u0131z var…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kim bilir g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na ortak olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ka\u00e7 vicdan azab\u0131, her gece uykular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fcyor…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6yle ya, yeti\u015femedi\u011fimiz d\u00fcnler de\u011fil mi g\u00f6zlerimizi uzaklara dald\u0131ran…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015farken hissettiklerimiz bu kadar boynumuzu b\u00fckm\u00fc\u015fken, hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015farken Hissi Beyan Olmayanlar\u0131\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bundan 10 sene evvel \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fiir kitab\u0131na bu giri\u015f ile ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 tekrar tekrar okudu\u011fumda duygular\u0131n bendeki tezah\u00fcr\u00fc itibariyle zamana yenilmeyen bir girizgah yapm\u0131\u015f\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden edemedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bunu, d\u00fcn gece uykuya yol olmadan derin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalarak pop\u00fcler tabirle overthink modunda unutulmaya y\u00fcz tutanlar\u0131m adl\u0131 bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman daha iyi anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131na zamans\u0131zl\u0131k, yetememek, \u00fc\u015fenge\u00e7lik, umursamazl\u0131k, vefas\u0131zl\u0131k ne derseniz deyin hep bir yan\u0131m\u0131zda yeti\u015femedi\u011fim y\u00fczlerce ukdem varm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Uzatmayay\u0131m saati beklemeye alarak; belgisizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc hissiyatlar\u0131n gecenin kesik soluklu sessizli\u011finde derinlere indik\u00e7e buhran ve h\u00fcz\u00fcn sarmal\u0131na bulanm\u0131\u015f imkans\u0131z olanlar\u0131n\u0131, ke\u015fkelere emanet edip beklemeye ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne varsa not etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Benim i\u00e7in de de\u011fi\u015fik bir tecr\u00fcbe oldu. Her bir not al\u0131\u015f\u0131mda bazen kendime k\u0131zd\u0131m, bazen hak verdim, bazen de i\u015fin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcn do\u011fumuna kadar s\u00fcren bu hat\u0131r muhteval\u0131 y\u00fcklenme seans\u0131n\u0131n neticelerini sabah\u0131n ilk saatlerinden itibaren fiiliyata d\u00f6nen te\u015febb\u00fcslerle i\u00e7sel doluluk oran\u0131mda kota a\u00e7maya ba\u015fard\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sebebe dolayl\u0131 neden \u015f\u00fcphesinden sonuca olumlu yakla\u015f\u0131m muamelesine eri\u015fmenin huzuruna eri\u015ftim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sonu\u00e7 itibariyle;<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ge\u00e7 Kal\u0131nm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k Hi\u00e7bir \u015eey Yapmamazl\u0131ktan Ye\u011fmi\u015f\u2026<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130kinci kitab\u0131m\u0131n ismi ne olabilir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesinden de bu yaz\u0131 sayesinde kurtulmu\u015f oldum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Selametle\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ahmet K\u0130RAZ<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n tela\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde var olma \u00e7abas\u0131na tak\u0131lan onca unutkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, onca g\u00f6n\u00fcl koyan\u0131m\u0131z var… Kim bilir g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na ortak olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ka\u00e7 vicdan azab\u0131, her gece uykular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fcyor… \u00d6yle ya, yeti\u015femedi\u011fimiz d\u00fcnler de\u011fil mi g\u00f6zlerimizi uzaklara dald\u0131ran… Ya\u015farken hissettiklerimiz bu kadar boynumuzu b\u00fckm\u00fc\u015fken, … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12066"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12066"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12066\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12069,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12066\/revisions\/12069"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12066"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12066"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12066"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}