{"id":12041,"date":"2025-09-28T18:15:21","date_gmt":"2025-09-28T15:15:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12041"},"modified":"2025-09-28T18:15:22","modified_gmt":"2025-09-28T15:15:22","slug":"hayalin-otesindeki-karanlik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12041","title":{"rendered":"Hayalin \u00d6tesindeki Karanl\u0131k…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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\u00c7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131 insan\u0131n an\u0131lar toplam\u0131n \u00e7o\u011ful g\u00fcc\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir solukta ayn\u0131 tazelikle ula\u015f\u0131labilen hat\u0131ralar\u0131n sakl\u0131 yan\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Benim de yazarken duraksamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yeg\u00e2ne k\u0131y\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buyurun o kolayl\u0131k verdi\u011fi rahatl\u0131kla o zamanlardan arda kalan hat\u0131ralara birlikte yol vererek yaz\u0131m\u0131za hayat verelim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yama yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karken; ad\u0131m\u0131ma zamanlay\u0131c\u0131 ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f gibi, g\u00fcn fark etmeksizin ayn\u0131 noktalarda, ayn\u0131 zaman dilimlerinde solu\u011fumu toparlar iyi ki yolun en sonundaki ev bizim de\u011fil deyip kendimi motive ederek yoku\u015f yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmaya devam ederdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011fimde ise yolun tam ortas\u0131na oturur seyir haline gelmi\u015f Ankara\u2019n\u0131n minyat\u00fcr\u00fcnde sakl\u0131 hayatlar\u0131 merak ederdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yolun ortas\u0131nda oturunca bizim oralarda anneler ve babalar endi\u015fe duymaz ve k\u0131zmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sokakta toplasan \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fide araba vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Onlarda numune olarak \u00e7ok nadir d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yani yolun patronu \u00e7ocuklard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yolda ev kadar g\u00fcvenliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6yle ki i\u015fi kurallar\u0131na g\u00f6re uygularsan, s\u00f6z dinlersen ve seyre dald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda mindere de oturduysan eve girmenin saatini de uykun belirlerdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tasvire bo\u011fmak istemem ama sanki \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun ge\u00e7ti\u011fi o soka\u011f\u0131 biraz anlatsam fena olmayacak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mahallemizin ismi Do\u011fan tepeydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Birbirine benzemeyen s\u0131ra s\u0131ra derme \u00e7atma, farkl\u0131 renklerde gecekondularla dolu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her birinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde, sa\u011f\u0131nda, solunda az da olsa a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Evler ve a\u011fa\u00e7lar hudutsuzluk ruhu ile kimi yolun d\u0131\u015f\u0131na ta\u015fm\u0131\u015f kimi ise \u00e7ok i\u00e7erde kalm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yol ile ba\u011flant\u0131s\u0131 olmayan evler i\u00e7in de pek \u00e7ok i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00e7mi\u015f patika yol\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Patika yollar\u0131n \u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc s\u0131nav sorusu olsa ay\u0131r\u0131c\u0131l\u0131k indeksi en y\u00fcksek soru olur muhtemelen\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6rsel benzersizlik i\u00e7inde m\u00fc\u015ftereklikler ise; kot fark\u0131ndan kaynakl\u0131 her noktada e\u015fsiz Ankara manzaras\u0131nda is kokulu, yokluk s\u0131navl\u0131 hayatlar\u0131n tezah\u00fcr etmesi olurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir de o yoku\u015fun insan\u0131 olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi g\u00fcven.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

O y\u00fczden o yoku\u015f yol herkes i\u00e7in \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetliydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ankara\u2019n\u0131n puslu gecelerinde her \u015feye ra\u011fmen \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 ezebilir, hayallerini gezdirebilirdin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir de \u00e7ocuksun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zoru ya\u015famana ra\u011fmen y\u00fck\u00fcn daha hafif.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Heybende sadece ama sadece oyun ve hayallerin var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u015fte ben de o zamanlar g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerlerde hayat\u0131n devam etti\u011fini, g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim her noktada ise b\u00fcy\u00fck bir karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Yani sahne perdesi gibi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ve bu durumu tespit etmek i\u00e7in devaml\u0131 arkam\u0131 d\u00f6ner o yoklu\u011fun pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015ferdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nas\u0131l bir inanmaksa her denemede daha h\u0131zl\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan dolay\u0131 o karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yakalayamad\u0131m diyerek \u0131srarla kovalamacaya devam ederdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da asl\u0131nda hayat\u0131n zar zor idame oldu\u011fu bir ortamda insan daha ihti\u015faml\u0131 bir hayat\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na de\u011fil karanl\u0131klara inan\u0131yor, nas\u0131l olur da bundan farkl\u0131 hayatlar ayn\u0131 anda ya\u015fanabilir diye gelgite d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

De\u011finmeden edemeyece\u011fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bug\u00fcn haberdar olman\u0131n zirvesinde d\u00fcnya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Garb\u0131n sesi, g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc \u015farktan da anl\u0131k olarak i\u015fitiliyor ve g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Benim karanl\u0131k yan\u0131m kalmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her yer g\u00f6ren bir g\u00f6z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Art\u0131k arkama d\u00f6n\u00fcp o karanl\u0131k var m\u0131 diye kovalamaca oynam\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fakat bu \u00e7a\u011fda karanl\u0131k i\u00e7inde Filistin\u2019deki t\u00fcm \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in hayatta kalmak i\u00e7in bir ya\u015fant\u0131 var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c7aresizlik i\u00e7inde u\u00e7urumun dibinde s\u0131f\u0131r noktas\u0131ndalar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gerilerinde enkazlar d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her yerleri \u0131zd\u0131rap, her yerleri karanl\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do\u011fan bir tepeden, denizleri a\u015f\u0131rarak Rabbim onlara huzur ve rahmetler getirsin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu karanl\u0131ktan onlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zulmedeni de her iki cihanda kahr\u0131 peri\u015fan eylesin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu vah\u015fette en yak\u0131n zamanda sona ersin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Selametle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ahmet K\u0130RAZ<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00c7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131 insan\u0131n an\u0131lar toplam\u0131n \u00e7o\u011ful g\u00fcc\u00fcd\u00fcr. Bir solukta ayn\u0131 tazelikle ula\u015f\u0131labilen hat\u0131ralar\u0131n sakl\u0131 yan\u0131d\u0131r. Benim de yazarken duraksamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yeg\u00e2ne k\u0131y\u0131md\u0131r. Buyurun o kolayl\u0131k verdi\u011fi rahatl\u0131kla o zamanlardan arda kalan hat\u0131ralara birlikte yol vererek yaz\u0131m\u0131za hayat verelim. Yama yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karken; … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12041"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12041"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12041\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12043,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12041\/revisions\/12043"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12041"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12041"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12041"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}