{"id":12038,"date":"2025-09-25T20:23:20","date_gmt":"2025-09-25T17:23:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12038"},"modified":"2025-09-25T20:23:21","modified_gmt":"2025-09-25T17:23:21","slug":"bir-gunlugun-dile-gelmesi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=12038","title":{"rendered":"Bir G\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn Dile Gelmesi…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
\"\"<\/a><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Sayfalar\u0131n azal\u0131yor emektar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ba\u015flarda \u00e7ok \u00f6zendim sana ama sen de benim gibi karman \u00e7orman oldun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Diyerek nokta koymu\u015fum bir d\u00f6nemler (2006-2012) ara ara tuttu\u011fum g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011fe\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eu an \u00e7ok pi\u015fman\u0131m ve neden devam etmedim diye kendi kendimi sorguluyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neden derseniz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yorgunlu\u011fu, sonbahar\u0131n ilk hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n verdi\u011fi halsizli\u011fi bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131p bir solukta tabirine misal olacak bir h\u0131zla g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn her sayfas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi\u011fimde bir sonraki sayfada ne yazd\u0131m acaba heyecan\u0131na kap\u0131larak d\u00fcn ak\u015fam tamam\u0131n\u0131 bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da okudum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ve okurken baz\u0131 tespitlerim de bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 yazmam gerekti\u011fi noktas\u0131nda beni ikna etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Baz\u0131 yerlerde ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u00fcmleler o kadar g\u00fczel tutmu\u015f ki; o ana ait t\u00fcm duygular\u0131 hemen yan\u0131ma ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Baz\u0131 yerlerde de sanki beni bana ba\u015fkas\u0131 anlat\u0131yor ve bu anlat\u0131lanlara ben uymuyorum dedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her yeni sayfada muhteva de\u011fi\u015fse de uyand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 hissiyat bu iki durumun \u00f6tesinde bir \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc duygu olarak hi\u00e7 kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da asl\u0131nda an\u0131n i\u00e7inde de bu durumu o kadar \u00e7ok ya\u015f\u0131yoruz ki\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mesela g\u00fcn oluyor kendimize dair bir durum ile ilgili; bu hareket zaten benim ezberim, imzam diyoruz. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bazen de herkesten \u00f6nce ben bile kendimi tan\u0131yamad\u0131m, kendime bu aralar yabanc\u0131y\u0131m diyerek itirafta bulanabiliyoruz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcnl\u00fckte bunlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir nokta da hissiyat\u0131n \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlerde \u00f6zg\u00fcnle\u015fmi\u015f baz\u0131 ifadelerin karalamalar\u0131 yenerek hayat bulmas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mesela, 19 Haziran 2011 tarihinde yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m nota \u015fu \u015fekilde ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f\u0131m :<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fcspet ger\u00e7ekler i\u00e7inde hayal \u00f6tesiyim<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oyunca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kaybettim bana d\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc geri verin<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ritim olarak ezgisiyle bir rap \u015fark\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n vurgulu k\u0131sm\u0131 tad\u0131nda geldi bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130lgililer varsa kullan\u0131m\u0131na izin verebilirim 😊<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eaka bir yana art\u0131k beni i\u015fle diyen bir \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 var gibi geldi bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eu an yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m pek \u00e7ok \u015feyi payla\u015fmay\u0131 o kadar isterken, ayn\u0131 zamanda acaba \u2018\u2019 Bir G\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn Dile Gelmesi \u2018\u2019 ismiyle bir kitap m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karsam diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyor de\u011filim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu konudaki gelgitlerimi bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131p g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde o d\u00f6neme dair ya\u015fanan sosyal, ekonomik ve tarihi olaylarla ilgili yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m notlardan sizlere bahsederek yaz\u0131y\u0131 sonland\u0131rma niyetindeyim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eiir kitab\u0131m\u0131n ismine Ya\u015farken Hissi Beyan Olmayanlar olarak 2006 y\u0131l\u0131nda karar vermi\u015fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2009 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n Ekim ay\u0131nda maa\u015f\u0131m 2.325, ev kiram ise 500 liraym\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yine 2009 y\u0131l\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131m s\u00fcrecine dair \u2018\u2019 A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131m diye diye iyice a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131k. Unuttuk\u00e7a unutur olduk vatan\u0131na milletine g\u00f6z dikeni \u2018\u2019 diyerek sitemde bulunmu\u015fum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2010 y\u0131l\u0131ndaki Elaz\u0131\u011f depremiyle ilgi de bir d\u00f6rtl\u00fck yazm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Salland\u0131 yine yer<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Par\u00e7aland\u0131 y\u00fcrekler<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimi evsiz kald\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kimi \u00f6ks\u00fcz bedenler<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Selametle <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ahmet K\u0130RAZ<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sayfalar\u0131n azal\u0131yor emektar\u2026 Ba\u015flarda \u00e7ok \u00f6zendim sana ama sen de benim gibi karman \u00e7orman oldun. Diyerek nokta koymu\u015fum bir d\u00f6nemler (2006-2012) ara ara tuttu\u011fum g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011fe\u2026 \u015eu an \u00e7ok pi\u015fman\u0131m ve neden devam etmedim diye kendi kendimi sorguluyorum. Neden derseniz\u2026 Yorgunlu\u011fu, … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12038"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12038"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12038\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12040,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12038\/revisions\/12040"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12038"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12038"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12038"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}