{"id":11251,"date":"2021-05-06T20:44:26","date_gmt":"2021-05-06T17:44:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=11251"},"modified":"2021-05-06T20:44:28","modified_gmt":"2021-05-06T17:44:28","slug":"hayata-dair","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=11251","title":{"rendered":"Hayata Dair…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da,
san\u0131r\u0131m en b\u00fcy\u00fck korkumuz oldu\u011fumuz gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmek…
Yumu\u015fac\u0131k kalbimizin fark edilmesi,
naif y\u00f6nlerimizin ke\u015ffedilmesi,
cesaretsizligimizin anla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131,
korkular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n payla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131
sanki zarar g\u00f6rece\u011fimizin en b\u00fcy\u00fck i\u015fareti.
Kabuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131nda
kendimizi saklamakta ne kadar da ustay\u0131z…
…Ve ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc korunuyoruz, kalkanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ard\u0131nda.
Hissedilmeden, el de\u011fmeden, sevgimizi g\u00f6stermeden.
\u0130stiridyeler, deniz minareleri, midyeler.
Kirpiler ve kaplumba\u011falar gibi.
Sahi koruyor mu bizi bu \u00e7atlamam\u0131\u015f sert kabuk?
Kimse incitemiyor mu duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, inan\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, benli\u011fimizi?
Yoksa zarar m\u0131 veriyor bu \u00fcrkeklik, bu kabuk bize.?
Hissettiklerimizi g\u00f6lgeliyor, yans\u0131tm\u0131yor mu ger\u00e7ek kimli\u011fimizi?
duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bast\u0131r\u0131yor, el ele tutu\u015fmam\u0131z\u0131 engelliyor mu?
E\u011fer bir y\u0131ld\u0131z gibi \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131lsam ve bir y\u0131ld\u0131z kadar parlak.
Ne \u00e7\u0131kar ate\u015fb\u00f6ce\u011fi sansalar beni?
…
Belki en hoyrat y\u00fcrek bile ate\u015fb\u00f6ce\u011finin
o u\u00e7ucu, masum, sevimli \u00e7ocuksulu\u011funa
el kald\u0131rmaya k\u0131yamaz?
Anla\u015f\u0131laca\u011f\u0131m ve bir ayna gibi yans\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m
kar\u015f\u0131mdakine.
O da \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclecek belki.
Samimi ve g\u00fcvenliksiz, silahs\u0131z biriyle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze gelince.
Oysa bir g\u00f6rebilsek bunu.
Kalmad\u0131 b\u00f6yle insanlar demesek.
G\u00fcven duygusuna bu kadar muhta\u00e7 olmasak.
K\u0131r\u0131lmaktan korkmasak.
\u0130ncinsek, yaralansak.
Ne olur bir darbe daha alsak.
Yeniden a\u00e7sak kendimizi, atabilsek o kabu\u011fu.
Denesek. Risk alsak. Yan\u0131lsak. Fark etmez.
…
Tekrar, tekrar b\u0131kmadan denesek.
Ve kucakla\u015fsak yeniden.
T\u0131pk\u0131 eskisi gibi.
Ne oldu\u011funu anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o onbe\u015f y\u0131ldan \u00f6ncesi gibi.
O zaman fark edece\u011fiz.
Ne kadar \u00f6zledi\u011fimizi birbirimizi.
Neler biriktirdi\u011fimizi,
kaybolan de\u011ferlerimizi ne kadar \u00f6zledi\u011fimizi.
Beraber geldik beraber gidiyoruz oysa.
Vakit az, payla\u015fmak, sar\u0131lmak i\u00e7in.
Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z co\u011frafya zor, sartlar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r.
Y\u00fcre\u011fi daha fazla k\u00fcst\u00fcrmemek laz\u0131m.
S\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131zda a\u011f\u0131r k\u00fcfeler, her g\u00fcn katlanan.
Ve ko\u015fullar bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc d\u00fczelmeyen.
Sevgiye \u00e7ok ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z var.
Ufukta kara bir k\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.
Ancak birbirimize sokulursak atlat\u0131r\u0131z o g\u00fcnleri.
K\u0131r\u0131n o sert, o a\u011f\u0131r kabuklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131.
Kurtulun bu y\u00fckten.
Korumuyor o kabuklar, aksine zarar veriyor bize.
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa mahkum ediyor bizleri.
Hem hepimiz bir y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131z.
Ne \u00e7\u0131kar ate\u015fb\u00f6ce\u011fi sansalar bizi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Rabindranath Tagore<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da,san\u0131r\u0131m en b\u00fcy\u00fck korkumuz oldu\u011fumuz gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmek…Yumu\u015fac\u0131k kalbimizin fark edilmesi,naif y\u00f6nlerimizin ke\u015ffedilmesi,cesaretsizligimizin anla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131,korkular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n payla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131sanki zarar g\u00f6rece\u011fimizin en b\u00fcy\u00fck i\u015fareti.Kabuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131ndakendimizi saklamakta ne kadar da ustay\u0131z……Ve ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc korunuyoruz, kalkanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ard\u0131nda.Hissedilmeden, el de\u011fmeden, sevgimizi g\u00f6stermeden.\u0130stiridyeler, deniz minareleri, midyeler.Kirpiler ve … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11251"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11251"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11251\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11252,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11251\/revisions\/11252"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11251"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11251"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11251"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}