{"id":11111,"date":"2021-02-17T20:15:53","date_gmt":"2021-02-17T17:15:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=11111"},"modified":"2021-02-17T20:15:56","modified_gmt":"2021-02-17T17:15:56","slug":"mevsimlerin-eskittigi-dallarin-insani","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=11111","title":{"rendered":"MEVS\u0130MLER\u0130N ESK\u0130TT\u0130\u011e\u0130 DALLARIN \u0130NSANI…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Al\u0131\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131k sabahlara uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131m bug\u00fcnlerde umut ile karamsarl\u0131k aras\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlarday\u0131m. G\u00fcn kavram\u0131 eskisinden de beter. Gece ne zaman g\u00fcnd\u00fcz kim? Tan\u0131m\u0131yorum \u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

 \u0130nsan bir imtihan\nyoluna girdi\u011fi zaman mutlaka \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131mlarda bulunuyor ya da Haruki Murakami gibi\nbir betimlemeyle noktay\u0131 koyuveriyorsunuz. S\u00f6z o dur ki:\u201d F\u0131rt\u0131na ge\u00e7tikten\nsonra nas\u0131l atlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rlamayacaks\u0131n\u0131z. Nas\u0131l hayatta kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 da.\nHatta f\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n dinip dinmedi\u011finden bile emin olamayacaks\u0131n\u0131z. Ancak bir \u015fey\nkesindir; f\u0131rt\u0131nadan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra f\u0131rt\u0131naya girenle ayn\u0131 insan\nolmayacaks\u0131n\u0131z.\u201d Elbette tecr\u00fcbe dedi\u011fimiz \u015fey, bizim b\u00fcy\u00fcmekte olan hayat\na\u011fac\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zla can vermemizden gelir. Sulamayan fidan f\u0131rt\u0131naya ve\nkurakl\u0131\u011fa yenik d\u00fc\u015fer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130mtihan bu a\u011fac\u0131n neresinde?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ne k\u0131r\u0131lgan yanlar\u0131m\u0131z var bizim. Kimimiz yaralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\nsarmak i\u00e7in g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flere s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rken kimisi etraf\u0131na duvar \u00f6r\u00fcp yaln\u0131z kalmay\u0131\ntercih ediyor. Kimisi, \u00f6mr\u00fc boyunca aitlik hissinden eksik ya\u015farken son dura\u011f\u0131\nolan mezar\u0131, kendisine yuva g\u00f6r\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Biz bir par\u00e7a tohumla topra\u011fa ekilmi\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131z. Hayat\u0131n\nbize en b\u00fcy\u00fck kumar\u0131 en ince, en k\u0131r\u0131lgan yanlar\u0131m\u0131zdan vurmas\u0131\u2026 Bir a\u011fa\u00e7 neden\nbudan\u0131r? Neden ince dallar a\u011fac\u0131n g\u00f6vdesinden ayr\u0131l\u0131r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Topra\u011fa olan g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc yeterince versin olgun bir a\u011fa\u00e7\nolabilsin diye. Demek ki korkular\u0131m\u0131zla y\u00fcz y\u00fcze gelmek, ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yerlerden\nyara almak bizim en k\u0131r\u0131lgan yanlar\u0131m\u0131zdan ar\u0131nmam\u0131z i\u00e7in. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6vdesinden kopan ince dallar gibi y\u00fcre\u011fim: Neresinden\nkopuyorsa can\u0131m, oradan budaklanan dallar\u0131ma tutunur ellerim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Biz de\u011fil miyiz zaten: Be\u015fi\u011fe tek konulup, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc u\u011fruna\nde\u011fmeyecek insanlar i\u00e7in m\u00fccadele edip mezara tek b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131p, \u00fcst\u00fcne ilk toprak\natanlar\u0131n\u0131n can\u0131ndan \u00e7ok sevdikleri olan insano\u011flu\u2026 B\u0131rak sars\u0131n her yan\u0131n\u0131\nbalta izleri, sen senleyken onar\u0131r y\u00fcre\u011fini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u015fikar Yap\u0131c\u0131er<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Al\u0131\u015f\u0131lmad\u0131k sabahlara uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131m bug\u00fcnlerde umut ile karamsarl\u0131k aras\u0131nda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlarday\u0131m. G\u00fcn kavram\u0131 eskisinden de beter. Gece ne zaman g\u00fcnd\u00fcz kim? Tan\u0131m\u0131yorum \u2026  \u0130nsan bir imtihan yoluna girdi\u011fi zaman mutlaka \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131mlarda bulunuyor ya da Haruki Murakami gibi bir betimlemeyle noktay\u0131 koyuveriyorsunuz. … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11111"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11111"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11111\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11112,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11111\/revisions\/11112"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11111"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11111"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11111"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}