{"id":10821,"date":"2020-12-15T23:39:24","date_gmt":"2020-12-15T20:39:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=10821"},"modified":"2020-12-15T23:39:27","modified_gmt":"2020-12-15T20:39:27","slug":"yolculuk-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=10821","title":{"rendered":"YOLCULUK…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Kad\u0131n  yata\u011f\u0131ndan kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda\ny\u0131llar\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu omuzlar\u0131ndan koca bir y\u00fckm\u00fc\u015f\u00e7esine bir kenara f\u0131rlat\u0131p\natmak iste\u011fiyle derin derin soluk alabiliyordu ancak. Y\u0131llard\u0131r ard\u0131 arkas\u0131\nkesilmez \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun erik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n meyveleri tad\u0131nda ba\u015flay\u0131p g\u00fcnlerce dolab\u0131n\nbir k\u00f6\u015fesinde kalm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ilek kokusuyla biten r\u00fcyalar\u0131n huzursuzlu\u011funun  b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi bir anda kesilip bitmesini\narzularken bir yandan da bilin\u00e7 alt\u0131n\u0131 sorgulamak i\u00e7in \u00e7abal\u0131yordu lakin ne bir\ndoktor ne de bir uzman de\u011fildi.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Son bir kez derin bir nefes ald\u0131 ve karar verdi. Yolculuk! Bir yolculuk\nyapmas\u0131 gerekiyordu .Bir an bile d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden yerinden kalk\u0131p sar\u0131 puantiyeli\nturuncu kaban\u0131n\u0131 kapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi f\u0131rlayarak kap\u0131y\u0131 r\u00fcyalar\u0131n\u0131n surat\u0131na \u00e7arpar\ngibi kapat\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 evden. Hi\u00e7 giyinmedi\u011fi asl\u0131nda hi\u00e7 almak bile istemedi\u011fi lakin\nyolculu\u011fa en uygun olabilecek kaban\u0131 omuzlar\u0131n at\u0131p , \u015femsiyesini a\u00e7maya gerek\nduymadan(Ya\u011fmur her zaman bahar kokusu getirir bundan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc yolculu\u011funda bir\ntutam ya\u011fmur olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek) h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 ilerlerken yol\nkenar\u0131ndaki ta\u015f binalar\u0131 ,kald\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131, kalabal\u0131k al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f merkezlerini ko\u015far\nad\u0131m ge\u00e7ip arkas\u0131nda b\u0131rakmak istercesine ilerliyordu. En iyi yolculuk tren\nyolculu\u011fu olmal\u0131yd\u0131 \u015fu durumda ,en yak\u0131n yer ,ara ara kalkan tren saatlerinin\n\u00e7o\u011funlukla gecikmelerini anonsunun duruma ahenk katmas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra\n\u00e7ocuklu\u011funda \u00f6nemli bir yeri olan demiryolu ve trenlerin alternatifi ba\u015fka bir\nara\u00e7 olamazd\u0131.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bileti elinde ilk vagonun arkas\u0131ndaki vagonun hemen orta k\u0131sm\u0131ndaki tek\nki\u015filik koltukta otururken yine iyi yeri kapt\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.(asl\u0131nda arka\nvagonlardan korktu\u011funu kendine bile itiraf etmeden)Trenin d\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc herkesi bu\ndenli heyecanland\u0131r\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131 acaba? Yol uzundu en \u00e7ok okunanlar listesinden\nse\u00e7ti\u011fi, yolculu\u011fu daha \u00f6nceden planlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde \u00e7antas\u0131nda bunun\nbulunmas\u0131n\u0131n  belki nimet say\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in\nhi\u00e7 de yok diyemeyece\u011fi hatta bir tutam kendisini \u015fansl\u0131 hissetmesini bile\nsa\u011flayan kitab\u0131n\u0131 ,birka\u00e7 paket k\u00f6pe\u011fi i\u00e7in ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 leblebiyi ki bu leblebiler\ni\u00e7in k\u0131rk takla bile atacak ,her sevimlili\u011fi yapacak k\u00f6pe\u011fini biran i\u00e7in akl\u0131na\ngetirerek ve tesad\u00fcfen montunun puantiyelerinin sar\u0131s\u0131ndan olan(sar\u0131y\u0131 ne zaman\nbu kadar sevmi\u015fti ki! Anlam veremeden) kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kenar\u0131na ili\u015ftirdi.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tren yolculuklar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131r\u0131r neydi ?Ke\u015ffetmek  gibi bir \u015feydi. Sanki daha \u00f6nce kimsenin g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi\nyerleri ilk defa sen g\u00f6r\u00fcyormu\u015fsun , kimsenin rastlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ku\u015flar\u0131\nizliyormu\u015fsun, kimsenin bilmedi\u011fi k\u00f6yleri g\u00f6r\u00fcp bacas\u0131 t\u00fcten evlerdeki\ninsanlar\u0131n hayallerinin acaba ne olabilece\u011fini bir tek sen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyormu\u015fsun\n,da\u011flar\u0131 ,ovalar\u0131 ,g\u00f6lleri, t\u00fcnelleri ge\u00e7iyor ve bu hissi bir tek sen\nbiliyormu\u015fsun gibi bir \u015feydi tren yolculu\u011fu. Hele de baharsa yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n yolculuk\no nas\u0131l bir b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcr nas\u0131l bir sihirdir ki k\u0131\u015f\u0131 b\u0131rakarak arkanda girdi\u011fin t\u00fcnelin\nsonunda bahara \u00e7\u0131kmak gibidir.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nmesi gereken istasyona\ngeldi\u011finde onca saattir \u015fehirlerden k\u00f6ylerden hatta mevsimlerden ge\u00e7ti\u011fi\nyolculu\u011fun nas\u0131lda bu kadar \u00e7abuk bitti\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi kafas\u0131ndan paha bi\u00e7ilmez kareler\n e\u015fli\u011finde ge\u00e7erken g\u00f6zlerinin istasyon\nbinas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131nda tak\u0131l\u0131 kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etti . \u015eimdi her ne kadar bombo\u015f bir bina\nolsa da ne kadar g\u00f6rkemli geliyordu. Bir istasyon i\u00e7in ger\u00e7ekten fazla de\u011fil miydi\n \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131 her zaman tablolar\u0131 hat\u0131rlatan bu\nbina? Alman i\u015f\u00e7ilerle k\u00f6yl\u00fclerin birlikte yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve y\u0131llar\u0131n\nya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131p d\u00f6kmesi gerekirken hala muhte\u015fem bir tarihi eser gibi\n\u00f6ylece orda duruyor olmas\u0131 hayranl\u0131k uyand\u0131r\u0131yordu kad\u0131nda.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130ki se\u00e7ene\u011fi vard\u0131. Ya\ngiden trenin arkas\u0131ndan y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek devam edecekti. Ya da ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 asfalt \u00e7ak\u0131l\nkar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sevimsiz yola y\u00f6nelip yolculu\u011funu ba\u015flamadan bitirecekti. Demiryolu\ntahtalar\u0131n\u0131n her bir tahtas\u0131n\u0131 ad\u0131mlayarak ilerledi. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funun k\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ,karlar\u0131n\u0131,\na\u00e7 k\u00f6peklerini, kuru \u00e7al\u0131lar\u0131, bahar \u00e7i\u00e7eklerini ,zerdalilerini, eski k\u00f6y\nokulunu tek tek i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekerek ilerledi. Patika yola girdi. Zaman\u0131 durdurmak\nm\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fcyd\u00fc? \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc birileri burada zaman\u0131 durdurmu\u015ftu sanki. Her \u015fey b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131\ngibiydi. Ta ki \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun evine gelene kadar. Ne kadar da de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti.Kafas\u0131ndaki\no ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131yla dolu toprak ev gitmi\u015f yerine ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131yla dolu\nizsiz ,onsuz ,kendince kimsesiz ,bir taraf\u0131 eksik bu eski toprak ev kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde\nya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131n ruhundan bir par\u00e7a \nal\u0131rd\u0131 evler kad\u0131na g\u00f6re ve her evin bir ruhu vard\u0131. Ama bu ev eksikti\nlanetlenmi\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc evler gibi so\u011fuktu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015fat\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar,\nyasaklanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar, uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, yar\u0131m b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu vard\u0131 o evde. Bah\u00e7eye\ndo\u011fru tarihin tozlu an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan erik a\u011fac\u0131na do\u011fru giderken\nr\u00fcyalar\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc erik a\u011fac\u0131 hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015f hala g\u00fcne\u015fi aralar\u0131ndan s\u0131zd\u0131ran\ng\u00fczel meyveli a\u011fa\u00e7t\u0131 ve ordayd\u0131. Bir ad\u0131m ve arkas\u0131 and\u0131klar\u0131m , arad\u0131klar\u0131m\nama hi\u00e7 ula\u015famad\u0131klar\u0131m diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc kad\u0131n son ad\u0131m\u0131 atarken. Bir erik kopard\u0131\nyedili ya\u015flar\u0131nda dallar\u0131ndan erik koparabilmek i\u00e7in anca k\u0131ym\u0131klar\u0131n\nald\u0131rmadan tutunup dallar\u0131na t\u0131rmand\u0131\u011f\u0131 o a\u011fa\u00e7tan. Erikler ye\u015fil ve bahar tad\u0131\nolan erikler\u2026Alt\u0131ndaki \u00e7ilekleri fark etti bir anda kad\u0131n d\u00f6nd\u00fc \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundaki\ngibi ko\u015far ad\u0131m de\u011fil a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r yanlar\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131, uzand\u0131, koparmas\u0131na ramak\nkalm\u0131\u015fken bir ses. \u2019Koparma onlar\u0131 onlarla re\u00e7el yapaca\u011f\u0131m. \u2019Do\u011fruldu kad\u0131n ve\netraf\u0131na bakt\u0131 kimse yoktu yaln\u0131zd\u0131 orada. Ve birden yine o koku \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ilek\nkokusu, tiksinme, nefret\u2026<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Daha fazla dayanmas\u0131na\nimkan yoktu kad\u0131n\u0131n. A\u00e7t\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini<\/em><\/strong> y\u0131llar\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu omuzlar\u0131ndan koca bir y\u00fckm\u00fc\u015f\u00e7esine bir kenara\nf\u0131rlat\u0131p atmak iste\u011fiyle derin derin soluk alabiliyordu ancak. Y\u0131llard\u0131r ard\u0131\narkas\u0131 kesilmez \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun erik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n meyveleri tad\u0131nda ba\u015flay\u0131p g\u00fcnlerce\ndolab\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde kalm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ilek kokusuyla biten bu yolculu\u011fa\u2026.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00f6pe\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fey asl\u0131nda ne erikleri ger\u00e7ekten o kadar \u00e7ok sevdi ne de \u00e7ileklerden nefret etti. Sadece o sesi sevmedi. O evin ruhsuzlu\u011funu eksikli\u011fini sindiremedi. Ama \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir hikaye olarak g\u00f6rmekten vazge\u00e7ip kalemini al\u0131p yeni hikayelere yelken a\u00e7t\u0131.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Kad\u0131n  yata\u011f\u0131ndan kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u0131llar\u0131n yorgunlu\u011funu omuzlar\u0131ndan koca bir y\u00fckm\u00fc\u015f\u00e7esine bir kenara f\u0131rlat\u0131p atmak iste\u011fiyle derin derin soluk alabiliyordu ancak. Y\u0131llard\u0131r ard\u0131 arkas\u0131 kesilmez \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun erik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n meyveleri tad\u0131nda ba\u015flay\u0131p g\u00fcnlerce dolab\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde kalm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ilek kokusuyla biten r\u00fcyalar\u0131n huzursuzlu\u011funun  b\u0131\u00e7ak … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10821"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10821"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10821\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10822,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10821\/revisions\/10822"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10821"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10821"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10821"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}