{"id":10713,"date":"2020-11-29T06:51:40","date_gmt":"2020-11-29T03:51:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=10713"},"modified":"2020-11-29T06:58:08","modified_gmt":"2020-11-29T03:58:08","slug":"attila-ilhan-siirlerinden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=10713","title":{"rendered":"Attila \u0130lhan \u015eiirlerinden…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Ad\u0131m Sonbahar <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

nas\u0131l i\u015f bu
her yan\u0131na \u00e7i\u00e7ek ya\u011fm\u0131\u015f
erik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n
\u0131\u015f\u0131k i\u00e7inde y\u00fcz\u00fcyor
neresinden baksan
g\u00f6zlerin kama\u015f\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

oysa ben ak\u015fam olmu\u015fum
yapraklar\u0131m d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyor
usul usul
ad\u0131m sonbahar <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

An Gelir…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n\nan gelir
pald\u0131r k\u00fcld\u00fcr y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r bulutlar
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir heybet
o eski heyecan \u00f6l\u00fcr
an gelir biter muhabbet
\u00e7alg\u0131lar susar heves kalmaz
\u015fat\u00e2r\u00e2b\u00e2n \u00f6l\u00fcr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015farab\u0131n gazab\u0131ndan kork
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc fena k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r
kan tutar \/ tutan \u00f6l\u00fcr
sokaklar ku\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f
karakollar taran\u0131r
ya\u011fmurda bir militan \u00f6l\u00fcr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

an gelir
\u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0131rs\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r
her \u00f6len pi\u015fman \u00f6l\u00fcr
hep yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r
hayalleri yasaklanm\u0131\u015f
an gelir \u015fim\u015fek yalar
masmavi deh\u015fetiyle siyaset meydan\u0131n\u0131
direkler \u00e7at\u0131rdar yaln\u0131zl\u0131ktan
sehpada pir sultan \u00f6l\u00fcr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

son umut k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r
kaf da\u011f\u0131’n\u0131n ard\u0131ndaki
ne selam art\u0131k ne sabah
kimseler bilmez nerdeler
naml\u0131 masal sevdal\u0131lar\u0131
evvel zaman i\u00e7inde
kalbur saman \u00f6l\u00fcr
kubbelerde u\u011fuldar b\u00e2k\u00ee
\u00e7e\u015fmelerden akar sinan
an gelir
-l\u00e2 il\u00e2he illallah-
kanun\u00ee s\u00fcleyman \u00f6l\u00fcr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez bir mezarl\u0131kt\u0131r zaman
\u015fairler dola\u015f\u0131r saf saf
tenhalar\u0131nda \u015fiir s\u00f6yleyerek
kim duysa \/ korkudan \u00f6l\u00fcr
-tahrip g\u00fcc\u00fc y\u00fcksek-
saatl\u0131 bir bombad\u0131r patlar
an gelir
attil\u00e2 ilhan \u00f6l\u00fcr <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u011fmur Ka\u00e7a\u011f\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Elimden tut yoksa d\u00fc\u015fece\u011fim
yoksa bir bir y\u0131ld\u0131zlar d\u00fc\u015fecek
e\u011fer \u015fairsem beni tan\u0131rsan
ya\u011fmurdan korktu\u011fumu bilirsen
g\u00f6zlerim akl\u0131na gelirse
elimden tut yoksa d\u00fc\u015fece\u011fim
ya\u011fmur beni g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek yoksa beni
geceleri bir \u00e7arp\u0131nt\u0131 duyarsan
tela\u015f tela\u015f ya\u011fmurdan ka\u00e7\u0131yorum
sarayburnu’ndan ge\u00e7iyorum
ak\u015famsa eyl\u00fclse \u0131slanm\u0131\u015fsam
beni g\u00f6rsen belki anlayamazs\u0131n
i\u00e7lenir gizli gizli a\u011flars\u0131n
e\u011fer ben yaln\u0131zsam yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015fsam
elimden tut yoksa d\u00fc\u015fece\u011fim
ya\u011fmur beni g\u00f6t\u00fcrecek yoksa beni. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u015eahs\u0131n \u015eiiri…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6zlerin g\u00f6zlerime de\u011fince
Felaketim olurdu, a\u011flard\u0131m
Beni sevmiyordun, bilirdim
Bir sevdi\u011fin vard\u0131, duyard\u0131m
\u00c7\u00f6p gibi bir o\u011flan, ipince
Hay\u0131rs\u0131z\u0131n biriydi fikrimce
Ne vakit kar\u015f\u0131mda g\u00f6rsem
\u00d6ld\u00fcrece\u011fimden korkard\u0131m
Felaketim olurdu, a\u011flard\u0131m
Ne vakit Ma\u00e7ka’dan ge\u00e7sem
Limanda hep gemiler olurdu
A\u011fa\u00e7lar ku\u015f gibi g\u00fclerdi
Sessizce bir cigara yakard\u0131n
Parmaklar\u0131m\u0131n ucunu yakard\u0131n
Kirpiklerini e\u011ferdin, bakard\u0131n
\u00dc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm, i\u00e7im \u00fcrperirdi
Felaketim olurdu, a\u011flard\u0131m
Ak\u015famlar bir roman gibi biterdi
Jezabel kan i\u00e7inde yatard\u0131
Limandan bir gemi giderdi
Sen kalk\u0131p ona giderdin
Benzin mum gibi giderdin
Sabaha kadar kal\u0131rd\u0131n
Hay\u0131rs\u0131z\u0131n biriydi fikrimce
G\u00fcld\u00fc m\u00fc cenazeye benzerdi
Hele seni kollar\u0131na ald\u0131 m\u0131
Felaketim olurdu, a\u011flard\u0131m <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Tut ki Gecedir…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n\ntut ki gecedir
karanl\u0131k s\u0131va\u015f\u0131r ellerine camlardan
birden k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya d\u00f6ner
trafik \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131
k\u00fck\u00fcrtl\u00fc dumanlar y\u00fckselir
korkuya batm\u0131\u015f
camk\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamlardan
tehlikeye b\u00fcy\u00fcr sakallar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

tut ki gecedir
ihbarlar birer sansar
bir telefondan bir telefona atlar
yeralt\u0131 \u00f6rg\u00fctleri tetik \u00fcst\u00fcnde
adres de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015f silah ka\u00e7ak\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131
fahi\u015feler birbirinden ku\u015fkulan\u0131yor<\/p>\n\n\n\n

tut ki gecedir
katiller huzursuz
h\u0131rs\u0131zlar sinirli
hainler \u00fcrkek\u00e7edir
elleri telefona kendili\u011finden uzan\u0131yor
ihanete gece m\u00fcthi\u015f bir gerek\u00e7edir
ihbarlar birer sansar
bir telefondan bir telefona atlar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ihanet bir bilmecedir <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Emperyal Oteli…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

ben hi\u00e7 b\u00f6ylesini g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim
vurdun kan\u0131ma girdin itiraz\u0131m var
s\u0131ms\u0131cak bir merhaba diyecektim
ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 usulca dizine koyacakt\u0131m
d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn d\u00f6rt gece susacakt\u0131m
ya\u011fmur s\u00f6necekti yanacakt\u0131
sameland seferden d\u00f6necekti
duvardaki saat duracakt\u0131
kalbim kendili\u011finden duracakt\u0131
ben hi\u00e7 b\u00f6ylesini g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim
vurdun kan\u0131ma girdin itiraz\u0131m var
emperyal otelinde bu sonbahar
bu camlar\u0131n nokta nokta h\u00fczn\u00fc
bu bizim berheva olmu\u015flu\u011fumuz
bir nokta bir hat kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z
bu rezil bu \u00e7ar\u015famba g\u00fcn\u00fc
intihar etmi\u015f k\u00f6t\u00fcmser yapraklar
\u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fc aks\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131 bu takvim
ben hi\u00e7 b\u00f6ylesini g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim
vurdun kan\u0131ma girdin itiraz\u0131m var
sesleri liman sislerinde bo\u011fulur
gemiler yorgun ve uykuludur
sabaht\u0131r saat be\u015f bu\u00e7uktur
sen kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndas\u0131n
onlar gibi de\u011filsin sen ba\u015fkas\u0131n
bu senin g\u00f6zlerin gibisi yoktur
adam\u0131n r\u00fcyas\u0131na r\u00fcyas\u0131na sokulur
akl\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde siyah bir vapur
k\u0131vran\u0131r insaf nedir bilmez
otelin penceresinde duracakt\u0131n
\u015fehri karanl\u0131kta g\u00f6recektin
karanl\u0131kta ya\u011fmuru g\u00f6recektin
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n \u0131slanacak \u0131slanacakt\u0131
k\u0131\u015f geceleri gibi uzun uzun
tek damla g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6kmeksizin
maria dolores a\u011flayacakt\u0131
istanbul’u ya\u011fmur tutacakt\u0131
b\u00fct\u00fcn bir g\u00fcn i\u015f arayacakt\u0131m
sana bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc getirecektim
kulaklar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7\u0131nlayacakt\u0131
emperyal oteli’nin resmini \u00e7ektim
ak\u015fam sa\u00e7aklar\u0131ndan daml\u0131yordu
kap\u0131s\u0131nda durman\u0131 s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim
y\u00fcz\u00fcn zambaklara benziyordu
cumhuriyet bah\u00e7esi’nde insanlar geziyordu
tepeba\u015f\u0131’ndaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yahudiler
asmal\u0131mes\u00e7it’teki rum kemanc\u0131
b\u00f6yle r\u00fczgars\u0131z kalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z
bu bizim \u00e7ekti\u011fimiz sanc\u0131
el ele tutu\u015fmu\u015f geziyordu
gazeteler cinayeti yaz\u0131yordu
hali\u00e7’e bir avu\u00e7 kan d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc
emperyal oteli’nde \u00fc\u00e7 gece kald\u0131k
fazlas\u0131na param\u0131z yetmiyordu
g\u00f6zlerin g\u00f6zlerimden gitmiyordu
d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc gece sokakta kald\u0131k
karanl\u0131k bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bitmiyordu
sirkeci gar\u0131’nda sabahlad\u0131k
bilen bilmeyen bizi ay\u0131plad\u0131
halbuki kimlere kimlere ba\u015fvurmad\u0131k
hi\u00e7biri y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcze bakm\u0131yordu
hi\u00e7 kimse elimizden tutmuyordu
ben hi\u00e7 b\u00f6ylesini g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim
vurdun …. kan\u0131ma girdin ….. kabul\u00fcms\u00fcn. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Elde Var H\u00fcz\u00fcn…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\n\ns\u00f6yle\u015fir
evvelce biz bu tenhalarda
ziyade g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck
p\u0131r p\u0131r yald\u0131zlan\u0131rd\u0131 kanatlar\u0131 kahkaha ku\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n
ne meseller s\u00f6ylenirdi mercan koz nargileler
zamanlar de\u011fi\u015fti
ayr\u0131l\u0131k girdi araya
hicrana d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck bug\u00fcn
ah nerde gen\u00e7li\u011fimiz
sahilde savrulu\u015flar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f dalgalar\u0131n
yeri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fc \u00e7\u0131nlatan tumturakl\u0131 gazeller
elde var h\u00fcz\u00fcn
o \u015fehrayin fakat \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131 ak\u0131ldan
\u00e7ark\u0131feleklerin renk renk geceye da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131
s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam a\u015f\u0131k incesaz
kadehlerin mehtaba kald\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131
adeta d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn
hayat zamanda iz b\u0131rakmaz
bir bo\u015flu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fersin bir bo\u015fluktan
birikip yeniden s\u0131\u00e7ramak i\u00e7in
elde var h\u00fcz\u00fcn\n\n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ad\u0131m Sonbahar nas\u0131l i\u015f buher yan\u0131na \u00e7i\u00e7ek ya\u011fm\u0131\u015ferik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n\u0131\u015f\u0131k i\u00e7inde y\u00fcz\u00fcyorneresinden baksang\u00f6zlerin kama\u015f\u0131r oysa ben ak\u015fam olmu\u015fumyapraklar\u0131m d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyorusul usulad\u0131m sonbahar An Gelir… an gelirpald\u0131r k\u00fcld\u00fcr y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r bulutlarg\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir heybeto eski heyecan \u00f6l\u00fcran gelir biter muhabbet\u00e7alg\u0131lar susar heves kalmaz\u015fat\u00e2r\u00e2b\u00e2n \u00f6l\u00fcr … Okumaya devam et →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10713"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10713"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10713\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10715,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10713\/revisions\/10715"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10713"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10713"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10713"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}