{"id":10596,"date":"2020-11-10T18:51:20","date_gmt":"2020-11-10T15:51:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=10596"},"modified":"2020-11-10T18:51:22","modified_gmt":"2020-11-10T15:51:22","slug":"tan-vakti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=10596","title":{"rendered":"TAN VAKT\u0130…."},"content":{"rendered":"\n

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Uyand\u0131m\u2026bakt\u0131m\nki bir sabah\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fcne\u015f\ntenime i\u015flemi\u015f, r\u00fczgar h\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 kesmi\u015f s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct, s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct yapraklar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcyecek, G\u00f6k\ny\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6necek \u201dBahar\u0131n ak\u0131betine \u201d\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kenger\n\u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi gibi tatl\u0131 bir koku geldi burnuma, ku\u015f gibi i\u00e7im p\u0131rp\u0131r ediyordu\nyapraklar gibi dal\u0131nda savruluyordum bir yandan bir yana\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Denize\ndo\u011fru d\u00f6nd\u00fcm yelkenlerin parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcme ili\u015fti. Denizin g\u00f6\u011fe kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 puslu\n\u00e7izgiye diktim g\u00f6zlerimi\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u011fmur\nba\u015flad\u0131\u2026 Ben ise karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r ba\u011flar\u0131nda kuytu k\u00f6\u015fe arad\u0131m s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacak\u2026\nKar\u015f\u0131ma yabani bir incir a\u011fac\u0131 dikilmi\u015fti.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Benim\ngibi \u015fekilsiz s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 br mecrada idi. K\u00f6hne bir kayan\u0131n arkas\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m.\nGe\u00e7mi\u015f ya\u015fant\u0131lar\u0131m akl\u0131ma geldi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eskiden\nolsa an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 yad ederken g\u00f6zlerim limon s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f gibi olurdu, hunharca\na\u011flard\u0131m. Lakin art\u0131k unutulmaya y\u00fcz tutmu\u015f anlar\u0131 hat\u0131rlarken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\nkendi mecras\u0131nda ak\u0131p gitti salimce\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Neden\nbu kadar bedbaht hissediyordum kendimi? Belkide pas tutmu\u015ftu kalbim ve hatta\nellerim\u2026 Kalbim ayn\u0131 yerden vuruldu \u00fcst \u00fcste, laf aras\u0131nda\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00fcnyada\nkalmak b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ceza gibi gelirdi bana\u2026 Azalm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k, t\u00fckenmi\u015flik kaplard\u0131\ni\u00e7imi, soluk benzimden okunurdu kelimeler\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kozmik\ntoz i\u00e7indeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck yerimde bir solucan gibi k\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131m hoyrat\u00e7a\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Palmiye\ndallar\u0131ndan siperlik yapt\u0131m kendime\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

So\u011fuktan\ny\u00fcz\u00fcm al\u0131 al moru mor olurdu\u2026 Ezilmi\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ek kokan sessizlik kaplad\u0131 etraf\u0131\u2026.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bin\nmukabele do\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi, kediler m\u0131r\u0131n m\u0131r\u0131n ve k\u00f6hne bir karanl\u0131kta\ntoprakla d\u00f6v\u00fcn\u00fcp kuyru\u011fu ile hikayeler anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu adeta\u2026 Bir\nm\u0131rl\u0131yor,t\u0131sl\u0131yor ne\u015feli olunca kabar\u0131yor\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Derken\nku\u015fluk vakti geldi \u00e7att\u0131, ben g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn mahmurlu\u011funda, geceden kalma ruhsal\nromatizma ge\u00e7iriyordum. Etraf\u0131 izledim. Bir gen\u00e7 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Elinde mandolinle\nresital yap\u0131yordu\u2026\u201dDa\u011flara kar\u015f\u0131 Serenad \u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Da\u011flara\nseslenerek i\u00e7indeki \u00e7alkant\u0131lar\u0131 anlatmak istiyordu. Hasbihalinde bitap bir\nhalde idi\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Girift\nolan bu hayatlar\u0131m\u0131zda salimli\u011fe meftunum\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kendimi\n\u00e7apra\u015f\u0131k hislerle, i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm gizleri, duygular\u0131mdan m\u00fckellef\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ku\u015fluk vakti sona ererken, denizde yelkenler yalpalan\u0131rken, ben ise u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z maviliklere bo\u011fulup oray\u0131 terk etmek \u00fczere yola koyuldum\u2026 Benli\u011fimi buldu\u011fum yerden yan\u0131k yaralar\u0131mla so\u011fuk r\u00fczgarda kayboldum\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Demet Buket GAYUK<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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