{"id":10405,"date":"2020-10-03T10:07:49","date_gmt":"2020-10-03T07:07:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/?p=10405"},"modified":"2020-10-03T10:11:27","modified_gmt":"2020-10-03T07:11:27","slug":"bir-insan-uc-ayri-sair-ve-bir-yasanmamis-sayma-kacisinin-anatomisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=10405","title":{"rendered":"Bir \u0130nsan \u00dc\u00e7 Ayr\u0131 \u015eair ve Bir Ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f Sayma Ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n Anatomisi&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"450\" src=\"http:\/\/siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-1024x450.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-7326\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-1024x450.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-300x132.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek-768x338.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/12\/girmek.jpg 1182w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Sabah aymazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u00e7an \u00e7ice\u011fin g\u00fcne\u015ften ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131na benzer. Konu\u015fkan aynalar\u0131n pasl\u0131 patika yollar\u0131nda arars\u0131n kendini\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sana benzedi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ( g\u00f6z o\u011fu\u015fturma seans\u0131 ) haybeye ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar\u0131n kinayeli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc yakalars\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u015fte o adam cinsi, \u0131rk\u0131, dini ve dili fark etmeksizin kendiyle dalga ge\u00e7er, kendine \u015fa\u015far ve kendi kendine konu\u015fur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fmelerle ge\u00e7en y\u00fczle\u015fmeler a\u011f\u0131r hasta tablosu ta\u015f\u0131yan hat\u0131ralar akla gelince yerini g\u00fcne\u015fli bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda beliren kara bulutlara b\u0131rak\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>En s\u0131\u011f\u0131naks\u0131z and\u0131r o.<br>\nBir anda kopar f\u0131rt\u0131na ve sen saklanacak en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir yer bile bulamazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve konu\u015fur teskin i\u00e7in emeklili\u011fi ge\u00e7mi\u015f \u015fair polyanna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ben seni unuttum <br>\nGe\u00e7 bunu \u00e7abuk ey zihnim<br>\nNe sen hat\u0131rtlatacakt\u0131n ne de ben hat\u0131rlayacakt\u0131m<br>\nAhhhhh nerede sakl\u0131s\u0131n yalanc\u0131 tebess\u00fcm<br>\nBen seni unuttum ya\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f olayd\u0131n ey g\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonras\u0131nda kalemi an\u0131n tasvirini bir daha hat\u0131rda tutmak i\u00e7in betimleyici bellek ku\u015fan\u0131r. Sanki marifetmi\u015f gibi en ince ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir bir yazarak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>O an yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki yast\u0131k elinde bir koah hastas\u0131 nefessizli\u011findeki gibi d\u00f6rt b\u00fckl\u00fcm kal\u0131r. Ka\u00e7mak bir kurtulu\u015ftur dersin ama hat\u0131rdan \u00e7\u0131karmak i\u00e7in bu eylem nafile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir kovalamaca ba\u015flar<br> O oda senin bu oda benim.<br> Camlar nefessiz estirir<br> Balkon g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez kapan<br> Dokunmaz y\u00fcrekteki morlu\u011fa<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u015fte o ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f ko\u015fu\u015fturmas\u0131n\u0131n \u015fairi de sensindir. Sat\u0131rlar bo\u011far seni, sat\u0131rlar uyand\u0131r\u0131r bu kara uykudan&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Unutmak istiyorum<br>\nYa\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f varsaymak<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131 sayamamak<br>\nHi\u00e7bir \u015feye odaklanamamak<br>\nNe bu artan kalp sesim<br>\nNe de tepeden t\u0131rna\u011fa bu so\u011fuk ter korkutuyor beni<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir daha ya\u015famak gibi hat\u0131rlamak<br> Bir daha \u00f6lmeden \u00f6lmek gibi \u00f6lmek korkutuyor beni<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ahmet K\u0130RAZ<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sabah aymazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f a\u00e7an \u00e7ice\u011fin g\u00fcne\u015ften ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131na benzer. Konu\u015fkan aynalar\u0131n pasl\u0131 patika yollar\u0131nda arars\u0131n kendini\u2026 Sana benzedi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ( g\u00f6z o\u011fu\u015fturma seans\u0131 ) haybeye ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar\u0131n kinayeli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc yakalars\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte o adam cinsi, \u0131rk\u0131, dini ve dili &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/?p=10405\">Okumaya devam et <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10405"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10405"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10405\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10407,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10405\/revisions\/10407"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10405"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10405"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.siirmolasi.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10405"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}